Winning With Him (Men of Summer #2) by Lauren Blakely

“Then you’re in the same spot you’re in now. But if he doesn’t . . .” Dean offers a hopeful smile.

“And you’ll regret it if you don’t try,” Fitz says, then drapes his arm around his husband. “Look. I very nearly lost this guy back in London because I was chicken-shit like you. It’s hard to crack open your heart and let someone see it. I didn’t know what to say, or how to do it. But I couldn’t risk losing him, so I figured it out on the fly.” Fitz looks at Dean like he’s the answer to all his prayers, then turns back to me. “I told him how I felt.”

But telling Grant how I feel isn’t going to be enough. Grant will want to know why I iced him. He deserves to know not only the details about my father, but also what it cost me when I was younger.

How I almost lost the things that mattered most.

But as Fitz takes Dean’s hand, I’m sure they’re what I should aspire to—honesty, communication, and putting it all on the line.

Couple goals, not a couples’ trip.





Screw being chicken-shit.

Later that night, when I’m home alone, I pace through my living room, staring at the East River, the lights from the skyscrapers twinkling over the water as I dial Grant.

“Hey,” he says, answering on the third ring.

Someone shouts “Split!” in the background. Who is he with? What is he doing?

“Did I call you at a bad time?”

“It’s fine. I’m at my grandparents’. We were playing Bananagrams.”

I smile at the image of him with his family in California. But I can’t linger on it. I have to say why I called, so I lay it on the line. “Can I see you when you’re in New York next week?”

He pauses, then I hear footsteps and the noise receding as if he’s walking away. A door shuts. A car passes close by. He must have stepped outside.

“What do you mean, ‘see me in New York’?” He sounds wary. “What are you asking for, Declan?”

Yup. Knew this wouldn’t be easy. “I want to talk to you, Grant. Alone. You and me.”

Another beat. “Are you asking me on a date? Or to fuck? Or for coffee? Or pool with the guys?”

I pace along the window. I can’t sit still even as I blindly swing at pitches, hoping to connect. “I’m asking for you. Just you. Just to talk. I want to explain what happened in the spring. All the things I didn’t explain the night I called you, like why I sent that text. Can we just get dinner or a drink or something?”

Hell, I sound ridiculously desperate.

But that’s how I feel.

“You don’t drink.”

“We can get a not-drink,” I say, pushing out a slight laugh.

“A not-drink,” he repeats, seeming amused by that word.

My God, can he just put me out of my misery? “After the awards—I’ll be at the event. But we can meet up someplace afterward if that works for you.”

More footsteps echo, like he’s walking even farther away from the house. “Listen, Deck,” he says, using that shortened name that makes my heart want to fling itself at him. “I want to say yes. I really do. But I do not want to wake up to a text from you cancelling at the last minute.”

It’s like he knocked me on the jaw, but I deserve it. “That’s fair. But I promise you I won’t.”

“Are you sure about that?”

“I’m sure,” I say, hoping my tone makes it clear how much I mean it.

He sighs. “Okay. I guess I’ll save your number again.”

“You don’t have it saved already?”

“I deleted it,” he says, matter-of-factly.

That makes sense except for one detail. “But you’ve picked up each time I’ve called.”

He laughs lightly. “What can I say? Resisting you was never my strong suit.”

Not gonna lie—that makes me smile. “Good. I’ll see you next week. I’ll text you a location.”

“Someplace private,” he adds. “If we’re seen together afterward, just you and me, you know how it’ll go. There’ll be rumors and gossip. It’ll be distracting. Nobody will talk anymore about how we play baseball.”

With the year he’s been having and the attention he’s been getting, both on the field and off it with his causes and activism, he’s spot-on about that.

There is one place private, though.

I swing for the fences. “I swear I’m not thinking about the bedroom. I’m just thinking about privacy. But do you want to come over here? To my place?”

He’s silent for several long seconds that last forever. In the span of his silence, I fear a no coming my way. That he’ll shoot me down entirely. But instead, he says, “Yes. That’s probably for the best.”

The second the call ends, I text him my address and a time. He writes back that he’ll be here.

Then I prepare to wait the seven interminable days until Grant returns to New York City.

And, I hope, to me.





15





Grant





As soon as I end the call with Declan, the screen door creaks open and my grandpa ambles out.

“You eavesdropping, old man?”

He shrugs but gives a devilish smile. “Was there something good to overhear? I hadn’t noticed.”