Love on the Brain by Ali Hazelwood



            I position the stimulation coil one inch from his ear. “Yep.”

            “Very well, then.” He clears his throat. “My loneliness is killing me and I, I must confess I still believe—”

            I laugh, like everyone else in the room. Including Levi, who appears to be fairly close to Guy. It speaks highly of him (Guy, not Levi; I refuse to speak highly of Levi), considering he probably should have been BLINK’s leader. Guy doesn’t seem to mind, at least judging by the chummy chat they had over some sportsball game’s lineup while I was setting up my equipment.

            “. . . my loneliness is killing me and I, I must c—” Guy frowns. “Sorry, I must c—” He frowns harder. “Must c—” he sputters one last time, blinking fast. I turn to Rocío, who’s taking notes. “Speech arrest at MNI coordinates minus thirty-eight, sixteen, fifty.”

            The ensuing applause is unnecessary, but a tiny bit welcome. Earlier this morning, when the entire engineering team dragged their feet to the neurostimulation lab to observe my first brain mapping session, it was obvious that they’d rather be pretty much anywhere else. It was equally obvious that Levi had instructed them not to say so much as a peep about their total lack of interest.

            They’re good guys. They tried to fake it. Sadly, there’s a reason that in high school, engineers tend to gravitate toward the robotics shop instead of drama club.

            Thankfully, neuroscience has a way of defending her own honor. I just had to pick up my coil and show a few tricks. With stimulation at the right spot and frequency, decorated astronauts with IQs well into the triple digits and drawers full of graduate diplomas can temporarily forget how to count (“Woah! Is that for real?”), or move their fingers (“Freaky!”), or recognize the faces of people they work with every day (“Bee, how are you even doing that?”), and, of course, how to speak (“This is the coolest thing I’ve ever seen in my entire damn life.”). Brain stimulation kicks ass, and anyone who says otherwise shall know her wrath. Which is why the lab is still crammed. The engineers were supposed to leave after the first demonstration but decided to stick around . . . indefinitely, it seems.

            It’s nice to convert a bunch of skeptics to the wonders of neuroscience. I wonder if Dr. Curie felt the same when she shared her love for ionizing radiation. Of course in her case, long-term unshielded exposure to unstable isotopes eventually led to chronic aplastic anemia and death in a sanatorium, but . . . you get my point. Which is that when I say, “I think I got all I need from Guy. We’re done for today,” the room erupts into a disappointed groan. Levi and I exchange an amused look.

            To be clear: we’re not friends or anything. One dinner together, one night sleeping in a room that happens to contain three-quarters of my favorite books, and one yawny car ride to Noah Moore’s grave, during which he politely respected that I’m not a morning person and remained blissfully quiet, did not make Levi and me friends. We still dislike each other, rue the day we met, wish the pox on the other’s house, etc., etc. But it’s like last week, over vegan tacos, we managed to form an uneasy, rudimentary alliance. I help him do his thing, and he helps me do mine.

            It almost feels like we’re actually collaborating. Crazy, huh?

            For lunch, I heat up my ever-so-sad Lean Cuisine, grab a stack of academic articles I’ve been meaning to read, and make my way to the picnic tables behind the building. I’ve been nibbling on chickpeas for about five minutes when I hear a familiar voice.

            “Bee!” Guy and Levi are walking toward me, holding paper cups and sandwich bags. “Mind if we join you?” Guy asks.

            I do a little, since this paper on electrotherapy isn’t going to read itself, but I shake my head. I shoot Levi an apologetic look (Sorry you’re stuck eating with me because Guy doesn’t know that we’re archenemies), but he doesn’t seem to get it and takes a seat across from me, smiling faintly as though he doesn’t mind. I watch the play of muscles under his shirt, and a frisson of warmth licks down my spine.

            Hmm. Weird.

            Guy sits next to me with a grin, and I think to myself, not for the first time, that he’s wholesome, charming, and truly a Cute Guy™.

            This is incredibly objectifying and reductive, and if you tell anyone I’ll flatly deny it, but back in grad school Annie told me that there are three types of attractive men. I don’t know if she came up with this taxonomy herself, if Aphrodite announced it to her in a dream, or if she stole it from Teen Vogue, but here they are: