Stuck with You (The STEMinist Novellas #2) by Ali Hazelwood

            “I . . .” I thought about being with him the previous night. And then, later, about discovering what he’d done. Could I forget? Could I pretend? “I want to talk with the Erik I had dinner with. And breakfast. Before I knew what he was capable of.”

            Mara nodded, sad. “You could pick up next time he calls. And confront him. Demand an explanation.”

            “What if he laughs it off as something that I should have expected?”

            “It’s possible that he’s trying to call you to own what he did and apologize,” she said, pensive. “But maybe that would be even worse. Because then you’d know that he knew exactly the harm he was doing but went ahead with it anyway.”

            I think that’s exactly it. I think that’s why I hated Erik’s I’m sorry, and why I hate that he hasn’t looked at me in several minutes. It makes me wonder if he’s aware that he ruined something that could have been great out of greed. And if that’s the case, then I didn’t imagine it: the night we spent together was as special as I remember, and he still threw it into the garbage chute—A New Hope Princess Leia style.

            “I saw Denmark won against Germany,” I say, because it’s preferable to the alternative. The silence, and my very loud thoughts.

            He turns to me and exhales out a laugh. “Really, Sadie?”

            “Yeah. Two—no, three nights ago.” I look down at my hand, chipping at what little is left of last week’s nail polish. “Two-one. So maybe you did have a point about Neuer—”

            “Really?” he repeats, harsher this time. I ignore him.

            “Though, if you remember, when we had ice cream I did concede that his left foot is kind of weak.”

            “I do remember,” he says, a little impatient.

            God. These nails of mine are just embarrassing. “Even then, it probably had more to do with Denmark playing exceptionally well—”

            “Sadie.”

            “And if you guys can sustain this level of play for a while, then . . .”

            There is some rustling from his corner of the elevator. I look up just in time to see Erik squat in front of me, knees brushing against my legs, eyes pale and serious. My heart somersaults. He does look thinner. And maybe a bit like he hasn’t been having the best sleep of his life in the past few weeks. His hair gleams golden in the emergency light, and a brief memory resurfaces, of pulling at it when he—

            “Sadie.”

            What? I want to scream. What more do you want? Instead I just look back at him, feeling like the elevator has shrunk again, this time to the pocket between my eyes and his.

            “It’s been weeks, and . . .” He shakes his head. “Can we please talk?”

            “We are talking.”

            “Sadie.”

            “I’m saying stuff. And you’re saying stuff.”

            “Sadie—”

            “Okay, fine: you were right about Neuer. Happy?”

            “Not particularly, no.” He looks at me in silence for several seconds. Then he says, calm and earnest: “I’m sorry.”

            It’s the wrong thing. I feel a surge of anger travel up my spine, bigger even than when I learned about his betrayal. There is a bitter, acid flavor in my mouth when I lean forward and hiss, “I hate you.”

            He briefly closes his eyes, resigned. “I know.”

            “How could you do that, Erik?”

            He swallows. “I had no idea.”

            I laugh once. “Seriously? How—how dare you?”

            “I take full responsibility for what happened. It was my fault. I . . . I liked it, Sadie. A lot. So much so that I completely misread your signals and didn’t realize that you didn’t.”

            “Well, what you did was—” I stop abruptly. My brain screeches to a halt and finally computes Erik’s words. Liked it? Misread? What does that even mean? “What signals?”