A Duke Worth Falling For by Sarah MacLean
7
They spent the next two days living on sex and sleep and whatever they could throw together to eat before they started all over again, and Max did his best to discover every bit of Lilah’s glorious body, memorizing the places that made her sigh and the ones that made her laugh and the ones that made her moan.
He liked those the most.
On the third morning, as the early afternoon sun turned the grass in the north pasture the perfect autumn gold, he made good on his original plans, and took Lilah to the folly, Atlas leading the way. At some point after the morning she’d agreed to give him her time at Salterton Abbey, he’d gone to fetch the sheepdog, who seemed as happy to linger with Lilah as Max was.
And he was happy to linger with her, he thought as they crossed the estate in the direction of the tower at the northern edge of the land.
Happy to pull her close and pretend she needed help navigating the collection of stones that would become a brook in the spring.
Happy to thread his fingers through hers as they climbed the small hill just to the north.
Happy to stand back and watch her turn in a circle there, taking in the estate, reaching to retrieve her camera from the bag she’d slung over her shoulder before they’d left the house.
He could have watched her for hours, taking pictures of the land, of the mottled sunlight across the patchwork fields, of the storm clouds on the horizon, of the sheep in the pastures beyond.
And as he watched, it occurred to him that it was he who should have taken photos. Lilah who should have been the subject.
Because in six days she would be gone, and he would have nothing but the memory of her here, with him. And it didn’t matter how happy he was here and now—it didn’t matter how happy they both were, even as he watched the gleam of pure joy and contentment in her rich brown eyes.
This happiness, like all happiness in Max’s experience, was temporary.
At least this time, he’d known it from the start. He’d never expected Lilah to stay, and he could not afford to let himself believe she might. That way lay bitter disappointment, he’d learned that years ago. It was a lesson he’d do well to remember now as the sight of Lilah looking so peaceful and at home on the land that was his birthright and his legacy tempted and threatened.
Six more days, he promised himself. And he’d be damned if he gave up a single moment of them.
Lilah raised her camera, looking through the viewfinder at the estate house rising up on a hill in the distance, far enough away to settle it into the landscape and still imposing enough to give pause.
“You know, I think you can get that exact shot in the gift shop.”
She looked up instantly. “Excuse me, you can absolutely not get my exact shot in the gift shop.”
He laughed at her affront. “I beg your pardon.”
“You’d better,” she said, feigning seriousness before looking back at the house. “How many rooms are there?”
“One hundred and forty.”
“Good lord.”
It was ridiculous. “The family lives in about twenty of them. The rest is open to the public.”
She nodded, returning to their walk. “I took the tour.”
His brows shot up. “You did?”
“I did! The morning after we met.”
“I could have given you a tour,” he said, suddenly embarrassed and frustrated that she’d been in his home and he hadn’t known.
Neither had she.
Embarrassed and frustrated and guilty.
“You didn’t exactly bring me a basket of baked goods when I arrived, Max.”
“I saved you from Mabel.”
“Okay, first, I think Mabel and I would have worked it out,” she said with a laugh. “And second, I’m guessing that the lovely elderly woman who gave the tour probably knew more about the portrait gallery than you did.”
The portrait gallery filled with portraits of his ancestors.
“Although she really wanted to talk about the duke.”
He snapped his head around to look at her. “She did?”
“Oh yes. According to Judy, not only is he a billionaire, he’s quite dishy and unmarried.”
She said the last in a perfectly theatrical British accent. Max’s cheeks warmed. “Mmm.”
Lilah waved a hand in the air. “Unfortunately for all of us sad singletons, however, he’s also very secretive and nursing a legendary broken heart.”
“What rubbish,” he scoffed. Who was this Judy woman?
She shrugged. “I don’t know, I thought it was a pretty nice way of getting around the fact that he probably loathes having to mix with the masses. She really sold it. I confess, I was about ready to go Lizzie Benneting around to see if I could find him in the lake.”
Right. He wouldn’t sack Judy.
“Careful,” he said. “If you found me in the lake, I’d do more than Mr. Darcy you.”
She turned a delicious smile on him. “Promises, promises.”
He kissed her, lingering at that smile. “Unfortunately, we don’t have a lake handy.”
She shook a head. “What even is the point of having an English country house if you don’t have a lake?”
“I don’t know. You should ask Judy the next time you take the tour.”
“Okay, I give,” she said, threading her arm through his. “Regale me with tales of Salterton Abbey.”
“What do you want to know?”
“You have an apartment in the main house?”
“I do.” Tell her.
Tell her, and lose every moment of those six days of happiness.
“You see? And Judy said nothing about the hot farmhand.”
“Land steward, actually,” he corrected. It was the truth. Just not all of it. “But let’s get back to me being hot.”
“No. If we do that, I’ll never see the folly.”
That much was true.
“What’s it like living in something . . . Versailles-sized?”
He turned wide, affronted eyes on her “Versailles! Please. Balmoral. Windsor. But not French.”
She laughed, bright and beautiful. “I’m so sorry to offend. Please don’t tell your boss. I wouldn’t want him to kick me out.”
He resisted the urge to flinch. “He wouldn’t, you know.”
“I’m happy to hear it,” she retorted. “Do you know how hard it is to find a good hotel room on short notice? I’d have to convince Simon to let me stay at the Fox and Falcon.”
“First, you are not staying anywhere near Simon.”
Her brows rose. “What’s wrong with Simon?”
“He’s a bounder and a cad,” he said without hesitation. “And besides, you’re allowed to stay as long as you wish.”
“Even if the duke knew I compared his castle to Versailles?”
“Even then.”
“Ah. He’s the good kind of duke, then?”
He looked away. “He tries to be.”
Except for now. He can’t seem to be the good kind of man right now. Not when it means losing the pleasure you’ve promised him.
They walked in silence for a while, waving to a young family who had come to the estate for a wander. An older girl was attempting to teach a little one how to do a cartwheel, and Lilah slowed to look, giving Max time to watch her.
To wonder what it would be like if she were his to watch, always.
When the little one toppled over almost instantly, Lilah chuckled, and the woman with them looked over with a smile and a shrug.
“I like that the estate is public,” Lilah said as they resumed their journey.
“I do too.” Max waved to the family from a distance. “I like that it belongs to residents of and visitors to Salterton as much as to the title,” he said, repeating his father’s words, repeated from his grandfather.
“But not to photographers,” she said, teasing.
One side of his mouth lifted. “We make an exception for hot ones.”
She grinned. “So I’m hot now, too?”
“Shall I show you how much?”
He reached for her, but she slipped from his fingers with a laugh. “No deal, Lancelot. I was promised a folly. Tell me more. You’ve lived here your whole life, you said.”
“Yes.” The truth.
“Family business?”
“Mmm,” he said, hating the non-answer.
She shook her head. “Wild. And you never thought about leaving?”
“I did leave, for a while.”
She understood instantly. “The fallen-apart marriage.”
“The very same.”
They walked for a bit longer, and Max was grateful that Lilah didn’t pull away from him. He wanted to tell her this truth—even if he didn’t want to tell her all of it.
And she waited for him.
“We were young and in love,” he started, surprising himself with the words. “But I’d lived here my whole life and she’d spent her life in London. She didn’t want sheep and hay and lazy evenings down the pub. And I didn’t want the city, the parties, the people.” He’d never told anyone the rest. “I thought I could love her enough to get her to stay. And Georgiana thought she could love me enough to get me to leave.”
She nodded. “You were on different paths.”
Just as we are.
He’d seen the longing on her face when she’d talked about her work in that world—Christ, she’d taken photos of presidents and princes and superstars—and he could see how much she wanted to get back to it every time she lifted her camera to her eye.
Could see, too, that someone had taken it from her. He’d seen that look before on a woman he loved. Disappointment and sadness and something worse. Regret.
He’d never be someone’s regret again.
Lilah would never have cause to regret Max. She would leave in less than a week, none the wiser as to his title, and he would remain a lovely, satisfying interlude in her long and interesting life—a happy memory. He could hope for that. He could be that.
Because she would leave. And he would stay. And that was where this story ended.
“How long were you married?”
He looked out toward the tower, just visible at the center of a copse of trees on the next rise. “We met at eighteen. Married at twenty-three. Divorced at twenty-six.”
“Wow,” she said, softly.
“My greatest failure,” he said.
“Please. You were young and in love and believed it was enough. We all do stupid things for love at twenty-three.”
He looked at her, appreciating the matter-of-fact way she said it. Like it was true. “What did you do?”
“I went to art school, Max. About the only stupid thing I didn’t do is get married to the wrong person, and honestly that was only because I was falling for a different wrong person every week.”
The confession freed Max. “And do you still do that?”
“What, fall for the wrong person?”
“Mmm.”
“Ask me in six days,” she teased, not looking at him. Instead, she took in the wide expanse of Weston lands, but Max missed the vista with its enormous rolls of baled hay dotting the fields, lush wood in a riot of color, and the house itself in the distance.
He was too busy watching Lilah, more breathtaking than the land beyond.
“Growing up here must have been amazing,” she said, pulling him from his thoughts.
“It was,” he agreed. “Summers, when we were home from school—Simon and I . . . we’d spend every minute of daylight exploring.”
She smiled. “Bounders and cads in training?”
“He was the bounder and cad.”
“And you? Scoundrel and rogue?”
“In training. How did I do?”
She tilted her head. “Terrible.”
“I shall endeavor to try harder.”
“See that you do,” she said before adding, “And what about other kinds of friends?”
He slid her a look. “What other kinds of friends?”
“Girls, Max,” she said, as though speaking to a small child. “What about girls?”
They were nearing the top of the rise, closing in on a cluster of trees that had been there for two hundred years. “I’m familiar with the concept.”
She laughed. “I bet you were a heartbreaker.”
“I did all right.”
“Tell me about your first kiss.”
He stopped in his tracks. “I most certainly will not.”
She burst out laughing. “That was the most British you’ve ever sounded! Are you afraid you’ll ruin her reputation?”
“A gentleman would never.”
Lilah grinned. “Surely there’s a statute of limitations on kissing and telling.”
“How long would you say that is?”
“Twenty years,” she said, all certainty.
“Fair enough. Her name was Claire, we were ten, and it was very fast because we were absolutely certain we were about to be discovered by the vicar.”
“The vicar!”
“The vicar. We only ever saw each other after services on Sunday mornings.”
She made a show of looking shocked. “Kissing behind the church hedgerow is scandalous, Max.”
“It wasn’t behind the hedgerow; it was in the graveyard.”
Lilah’s pretend shock disappeared. “Wow. I’m honestly impressed. And a little jealous. My first kiss was in the back row of my high school auditorium with Brock D’Avino during rehearsal for the school musical.”
“Young Brock deserved a talking to, no doubt.”
“Well, I can’t remember anything about him but his name, so I don’t think it was very memorable. The point is, it wasn’t anywhere near as interesting as a graveyard.”
He winced. “Don’t say it like that. Makes it seem really grim.”
“Sunday morning cemetery snogging is better?”
“I wouldn’t exactly call it a snog.”
“Chaste smooching.”
He chuckled. “Better.”
They walked for a bit longer, and Lilah asked, “So, what happened to Claire?”
“Living quite happily in London with her partner and twin girls, last I heard.”
“Too bad.”
He cut her a look. “Not so bad.” Suddenly, nothing in his past felt bad. None of it could, if it had led him here, to this. To her, beautiful and fresh-faced and him, here, now. If just for a moment. And if six days of her was all he ever got, it would be enough.
Lie.
She stilled, pulling him around to face her, and he read the understanding in her eyes. The desire in them—a desire he recognized because it was his as well. “No,” she agreed, softly. “Not bad at all.”
She came up on her toes to meet him as he dipped his head and they kissed, and he didn’t want it to stop, soft and sweet and full of pleasure.
When they broke apart, Lilah’s eyes remained closed for a heartbeat, and Max took the moment to drink her in, warm and sun-kissed, a dusting of freckles across her cheeks, where her dark lashes lay. And then she whispered, “If I’m not careful, I’m going to like you more than six days’ worth.”
He already liked her too much.
He swallowed the realization, grateful that they’d arrived at their destination. The little tower stood a few yards away now that they were at the top of the ridge. Clearing his throat, he waved a hand in its direction. “The folly. As requested.”