Feuds and Reckless Fury by K. Webster

 

Alister

Canyon slides off the bed, turning his back to me. As much as I want to admire how his toned ass and muscular back inspires me to run my half-naked ass to my studio to sculpt it, I sit up on my elbows instead to look at my lubed, still semi-hard dick.

What the fuck did I just do?

I let Canyon jack me off, and I gave him a blowjob. With the damn door open, for fuck’s sake. Our house is big, and sound doesn’t carry, so I’m not overly worried about our dads knowing what we did, but still, it was reckless.

While Canyon dresses, I slip off the bed and rush toward the bathroom to deal with my dick. After washing the lube and leftover cum off, I pull my briefs and jeans back up, stealing a glance in the mirror.

Wrecked.

That’s the only way to describe the state I’m in. The unruliness of my hair, the pink splotchiness around my mouth from his scruff, and the reddening places on my neck and around my nipples are all evidence of a terrible mistake.

It. Was. A. Mistake.

For a perfectionist like myself, I sure am eager to make another one.

My dick is halfway back to erect, which is pissing me off. I can’t keep fucking around with Canyon like this. I can’t. It’ll end in disaster.

After splashing some water on my face, I pat it dry with a towel. Digging deep, I try to remember why being around Canyon is a bad idea.

Dad.

Because if Dad knew what I did, he wouldn’t kill me or be disappointed in me. He wouldn’t ground me or forbid me to see Canyon. He wouldn’t cry or yell.

He would turn me away.

Back out into the cruel world.

Alone.

Liar.

My heart fully believes he wouldn’t do that. That, despite being adopted, he loves me and would keep me around no matter my shortcomings. It’s my brain that has the problem. Logically, I know it would be the ultimate sin in Dad’s eyes. The cleanliness, overachieving, and excelling at everything I do are all efforts to make him realize he didn’t make a mistake taking me in. That I’m worthy of his love.

But a sin like this?

Kissing and touching and sucking off his fiancé’s son?

It makes my gut churn violently.

Sucking in a calming breath, I exit the bathroom. Canyon lingers nearby, his arms crossed over his massive chest and his brows pinched as he stares down at his feet. A flare of heat courses through my body, making me feel shameful and stupid considering the stern talking-to I just gave myself.

As soon as he disappears into the bathroom and I hear the sink running, I throw on my tank top and then busy myself with straightening my bed. The bottle of lube gets stowed away in the drawer once more, hiding the evidence of my wrongdoing. I’m pacing the floor beside the bed when I feel his electrifying presence.

“She lied.”

I freeze, all my inner berating ceasing as I jerk my attention to him. “Who?”

His eyes close, and his jaw clenches. “Mom.”

Before I can stop myself, I stalk over to him, aching for his nearness. He doesn’t shy away from my touch when I palm his cheek with gentleness.

“What did she lie about?” I ask in a husky tone, searching his pained sapphire eyes.

He swallows, the sound audible, and closes his eyes. “About having to work. She missed my meet because she had to work, but when I went there, they said she hadn’t been in.”

“Maybe she called in sick,” I offer, though I feel like there’s more to it based on the hurt in his expression.

“They said she hasn’t been in for weeks.” His brows crash together as his gaze darts back and forth between my eyes. For someone always so sure of himself, he seems younger in this moment. Vulnerable and heartbroken. It makes me want to pull him into my arms and not let go. “I was confused and worried,” he continues, “so I went home.” His nostrils flare. “She was dressed in her baking clothes…”

“I’m sorry,” I whisper, realizing where this is headed.

He leans forward, resting his forehead to mine, his eyes pinching shut. “I confronted her. Things got heated.” His breath hitches as though he’s overcome with emotion. “She wanted me to leave her alone.”

Unable to keep my promise to myself, I pull him to me, hugging him tightly. His masculine, soapy scent invades my every pore, and I greedily gulp up everything of him I can. I tilt my head up, seeking his neck to press a comforting kiss there. He roams his palms down to my ass, settling them there in a possessive, familiar way that makes my heart stumble over itself.

“It’s all Dad’s fault,” he murmurs, raspy and broken. “He did this to her. To us. I just…I just want him to hurt too.” A heavy sigh escapes him. “But that means hurting Quinn. You.”

“This is all so fucked up,” I agree, with a low, harsh chuckle. “All of it.”

“I wanted to break you, Wonderland.”

“And now?”

“I can’t break you. I don’t want to. I just want you.”

His raw, honest words carve themselves into my heart. I’m supposed to be blocking this out, but I can’t. I don’t want to. I want to capture each thing he says to me, each tender touch, and hoard them. My life was rotten for so long, I crave to take some good for myself. To be selfish for once.

I tilt my head up, peering into his electric blue eyes. “If my dad finds out about what we’ve done—”

Lips brush against mine in a sweet, caring manner that has my knees weakening. Canyon is rough and mean and competitive. Not gentle. Not kind. Not this. My mind loses its logical reasoning to the way my heart thunders in my chest. His tongue swipes across mine, eagerly tasting me like I’m something new and forbidden that he can’t seem to get enough of.

He tugs at my bottom lip with his teeth while squeezing my ass and pulls slightly away to search my gaze. “Alis, he won’t.”

I internally weigh my options here. I can push him away and keep my distance. Try and be a friend—a brother—to him.

Or…

A needy sigh pushes past my lips as I seek his, eager to feel his promise of secrecy within his kiss. As though he can see inside my mind, he devours me with his lips and tongue, kissing me so I’m wrapped in a cloud of Canyon protectiveness.

I want to bask in how it feels.

Nothing, not sports or orchestra or art, has ever made the anxiety and uncertainty of my future fade away before.

But, with Canyon, all I can think about is him.

Everything else is just background noise.

This is bad. So bad. Fuck, it feels good, though.

“Come on, Chibi, it’s imperative I share the world of Mubōna Ikari with you.” Canyon’s devilish grin as he pulls away has me submitting to this ridiculous shit with a groan. “I knew all it would take was getting my hands on your dick to convince you.”

Asshole.

“Chibi?”

“Chibi Miyazaki. Daisuke’s adversary.” He shakes his head as he turns on the television. “You have a lot to learn, man. So much.”

“I literally can’t wait,” I deadpan, earning me a poke to my stomach. “And, seriously, don’t call me Chibi again, Daisuke.”

The boyish grin on his face is enough to have me waving my white flag of defeat.

He can call me whatever he wants if I get to see such stark happiness on Canyon Voss’s handsome face.

All playfulness has evaporated by the time dinner rolls around. Canyon is back to being his broody, closed-off self in front of his father, despite spending the past couple of hours watching his admittedly interesting anime show. It’s more fun watching him explain all the characters and their importance versus watching the show itself. I like how the two main characters remind me of the two of us. Daisuke Kinoshita is a brat for sure, with a tender, caring side hidden beneath all that asshole exterior, totally reminding me of Canyon.

“We’d love for the three of you to come to the ski resort with us in Canada,” Dad says, clutching onto Ryan’s hand. “More of a family vacation than anything.”

I blink away my daze and frown at them. “You want us to go on your honeymoon with you?”

“It sounds silly,” Ryan says in a sheepish tone, “but you’ll all be off for Thanksgiving break anyway. The resort will be beautiful, and skiing could be a lot of fun to do with all five of us. Of course, we’d get a separate suite for our honeymoon and all, but we’d really like it if our children came along with us.”

I may not be considered Dad’s kid anymore at that point. Especially if he ever finds out about what I’ve been up to with Canyon.

“I don’t know,” Canyon grits out, the pure honesty in his voice tugging at my heart. “I’m just coming around to the idea of the two of you marrying. Going on family vacations together feels like…too much.”

I want to reach over and take his hand, but I don’t.

“Is that the real reason or are you worried about my impressive snowboarding skills?” I ask in a smug tone, though I don’t feel it, hoping to goad him back to familiar territory where so much pain doesn’t bleed from him. I’m yearning for my dad’s favor and Canyon’s happiness just as much as Ryan is. “It’s okay if you want to pussy out.”

Canyon’s brow lifts in that challenging fashion of his that gets my dick hard, which is incredibly uncomfortable sitting at the dinner table with our dads. “Are you taunting me, Wonderland?”

“Wonderland?” Ryan asks, his gaze dancing back and forth between us.

“Alis,” Canyon says, his eyes dropping to my lips. “He’s a wonder, that one.”

“What’s the worst that could happen if you go?” I smirk at Canyon, ignoring his heated gaze. “You’re already used to getting your ass beat by me. What’s one more thing?”

“My track record for beating your ass is great,” he throws back. “I’m sure today, at the meet, was proof.”

“They’re insufferable,” Dad jokes to Ryan, and then to Canyon, he says, “We really would love to have you and Carrie both.” He grows serious as he studies Canyon. “We know it’s difficult, but we want to do right by you kids.”

The muscle in Canyon’s jaw ticks, but he doesn’t lash out like I expect. Instead, he gives Dad a clipped nod. “I’ll think about it.” He glances up at the clock and pushes his plate away. “I need to get back home.”

Ryan’s shoulders slump in defeat, but Dad gives one of them a supportive squeeze. I know it hurts them that Canyon is resistant to come around, but I understand his hurt too. He feels betrayed by his father and is dealing with the ripple effects with his mom.

“I’ll walk you out,” I murmur to Canyon.

Dad winks at me, clearly thankful for my efforts to get along with Canyon. I feel like a dick because my reasons are purely selfish. I want to kiss Canyon once more before he leaves.

This is such a potential fucking disaster, and I don’t know how to stop it from happening.