Always Crew by Tijan

CROSS

My brother was pissed at me. No one cared.

Zeke was pissed at my brother. Everyone cared, or so I was told. It was all over campus by the end of the day. And in other news, Harper never said a word.

We kept waiting, expecting, but three days passed and nothing. The weekend came and went. Monday. Tuesday. We were all the way to next Thursday, and nothing extraordinary had happened.

Bren said her work was still cutting her out. She filled us in on everything happening there, including the phone call to her dad. She didn’t inform the guys how she felt about the call, but we all got it. She had a little spark in her eyes when she mentioned the call, but then it faded. So now we were coming up on another weekend (Thursday nights were counted as the first night of the weekend in college land) and nothing had gone down yet, especially when we thought all sorts of shit would’ve gone down by now.

“Have you talked to Tab at all?” The question came from Bren after we sat down for tacos. It was just the four of us. Zellman had plans to head out, but Jordan had stayed in every night since that night.

He paused now, in mid-reach for a beer. “No.” He stared at his plate. “Am I the bad guy? Since I didn’t reach out?”

The question wasn’t directed only to Bren. She glanced at all of us, clear indecision on her face. I opened my mouth. I wanted to step in, make it right, but I didn’t know the answer. I closed my mouth, sat back. Bren’s face tightened. Her hands balled into fists, resting on the table by her plate, and she looked at them. Her shoulders went rigid, but Zellman said it first.

“Tab cheated on you.”

“Zellman.” Bren frowned.

He shrugged, slumping down in his chair. One hand went into his pocket. The other reached for his beer. “What? It’s true. She overheard something and thought, ‘Hey, I’ll use my body in this situation and I’m not even going to break up with my boyfriend. I’m just going to cheat and let him find out.’ I’m sorry. I can’t understand Tabatha’s side where I feel bad for her in this scenario, and I’m sure I’m missing something and I should, but I can’t. She cheated. She should’ve given Jordan a heads-up. Shoot him a text, at least, not do it cold like she did.”

We didn’t have these conversations often. Ones that dealt with sexual shit, girls, their points of view. Bren didn’t speak up, and most times, she thought like we did, so we were in uncharted waters here. I wished I had something to say. I felt like I should have something to say, but I didn’t. If it had happened to Bren, or my sister, and I already went down that rabbit hole when Taz was just hurt, I still had no clue what I would’ve said or done.

It was messed up. That’s all I kept coming back to.

Bren had reached out to Tabatha. She went to her house the next day after work, but Tab wasn’t there. The sorority girls were adamant that Tabatha had taken off for the weekend. Bren was fine with that, opting instead to send a few texts. She called her, too. No response from Tabatha.

Monday happened. Nothing.

Tuesday. Same.

Bren tried getting in touch with her again last night, and I only knew about it because I walked in as she was leaving a message. Her eyes found mine over the table, and I was reading the sorrow there. She was asking herself the same question that Jordan had asked himself over and over again…had she done enough?

“If Tab wanted to talk, she would contact you. You guys are in the same position as she was when she decided to do something to help her dad. Wrong decision made, but it had been hers. She owned it.”

“And now?” Jordan asked me. The guy had been a walking corpse all week. He was staring into the void like he was half-dead. “Now that we know? I took her phone back to her the next day. Handed it over to one of her sorority sisters. I don’t even know if she got it.”

Bren frowned at him. “I went to the house, too. They turned me away.”

He looked at her, staring. He didn’t respond.

Zellman rolled his eyes. “Fuck this.” He shoved his chair back, grabbing his own phone out of his pocket. A number was dialed, and he put it on speaker as a female’s voice came over the other end.

“Zellman?”

We all paused.

Then Zellman said, “Sunday, where’s Tabatha?”

“What?”

It was Sunday. Zellman’s ex on-again, off-again, and one of those times when they were off-again, she hooked up with Bren’s ex and was now pregnant with his kid. That ex. Tabatha was high school friends with both Tasmin and Sunday, and that had me wondering if my own sister had heard from Tabatha?

Sunday chose to remain in Roussou to have her kid, while my sister and her boyfriend went to Grant West, a college four hours away.

Zellman was standing like a statue, listening to his ex, but at her ‘what?’ he snapped into action. He whisked his phone in the air, almost punching it with words, “You know where she is! Where is she? Is she there? Is she hiding?”

“What? What are you talking about?” But her voice was straining. She was obviously nervous.

“You’re lying to me. I can tell because you’re being nice. Normal Sunday would be pissed that I’m calling. You would’ve already bitched about two things by now, and you haven’t bitched about anything. Where is she?!” Zellman was yelling into the phone.

There was silence. Then a ruffling sound. Footsteps. A door opened.

A second later, a quieter and much more subdued voice spoke, “Is Jordan there?”

A pin could’ve dropped.

I didn’t think anyone expected Tabatha to come on the line.

Another beat passed.

“Jordan?”

Suddenly, he shoved back his chair. Two long strides around the table, he plucked the phone out of Zellman’s hand and he shoved his way outside. All three of us shared one look, then our chairs were pushed out of the way. We went to the window, and we weren’t trying to look pressed against it, eyes bugging out, but we were. We couldn’t help it.

Jordan didn’t spare us a look.

His hand was in his hair, like he wanted to rip it out and he was barking into the phone. He was pacing.

He was pissed. Tense.

Then he stopped.

He dropped to one of the chairs. The phone was on the table and his forehead was by it. He remained like that the rest of the convo. His legs were bouncing, restless, and he had his hands in fists, bouncing right alongside his legs.

“She was there the whole time.” Zellman was glaring out the window. “I should’ve known. I should’ve just known. I mean, I couldn’t have known, but I should’ve. She and Sunday got close at the end. They were both our girls. I mean, besides Bren and Tasmin, but it’s different with both of them. Those two got close.” He drew in a breath, his voice bleak. “We should’ve known.”

Yeah.

We should’ve.

But we didn’t.

Bren sighed. “We know now.”

It was midnight when Jordan came back inside. He’d been out there for hours, only taking a break to come in, piss, grab a new beer, get a phone charger, and head back out. The phone was always in his hand. He left it on the table when he went to the bathroom, but swooped it back up as soon as he went to the backyard.

He looked like shit when he was out there, even before he was out there. Now he looked like a wrecking ball came at him and targeted him for a direct hit. He tossed the phone to Zellman. “You need to charge it.”

Zellman caught it, didn’t say a word, moved from his seat, and slid it into his pocket. He never took his eyes off of Jordan.

None of us did.

“She quit school.”

Fuck.

Bren’s hand found mine on the couch. Her pinkie wrapped tightly around mine and she squeezed hard.

Jordan’s voice came out sounding strangled. “Said this thing with Harper hit her harder than she thought. She went to Roussou Friday night and she’s been there the whole time. She took a leave of absence, but she’s probably done. So yeah, she quit school. Gonna stay there, help Sunday with the kid.”

Zellman swore under his breath. “Sunday’s due soon, too.”

Jordan nodded, both his hands going to his hair. His eyes were wild, crazy. He found me. “I need a party. I need girls. I need loud music. I need booze. I need to not think right now, and a party will help me really not think. Does your brother know of a party happening right now?”

My brother had a soccer game tomorrow, so he was probably in bed.

But I said, “I can text him.”

Zellman snorted. “The guy doesn’t party unless it’s with Allen.”

“Fuck!” Jordan threw his head back, starting to pace. It was just like outside, only worse now because he knew everything.

Bren leaned forward. “We can go to Cougar Lanes? My job.”

“Isn’t that closed?”

She shook her head. “It’s a bar, but it’s a bowling alley. It stays open till two. The guys won’t care. Promise.”

Jordan blew out a ragged puff of air, his hands coming out of his hair. “Yeah. Okay. That’s enough. Can we sneak in booze?”

“Yes, but we cannot get caught. I might not drink.”

Zellman stood up, shooting Bren a grin. “Pretty sure the only person drinking tonight is Jordan.”

Bren nodded. “I’ll call and make sure there’s a lane open. It can get busy Thursday nights, or so I’ve heard. I’ve not worked the evening shift there.”

“It’s kinda hot that you work in a bowling place.”

We all stopped.

I shot Zellman a glare, then because there was nothing to say to that, I clipped him in the back of his head.

“Hey!” He gave me a look.

“The fuck you say shit like that?”

“What? I like bowling.” He was looking at us, wide-eyed. Not getting it. “Have I never told you guys that?”

“No.”

Jordan wasn’t talking. His hands were pushed in his pockets, his shoulders hunched forward. He looked ready to topple a mountain, and also ready to be blown over by a gust of wind. The dichotomy was real tonight.

Bren held her hands up. “I’m pretty sure we’ve been over this before. You’re not supposed to use the word ‘hot’ and me in the same sentence. Ever.”

Zellman frowned as Bren was grabbing her stuff, ready to go.

I only needed my keys and wallet, which were by the door.

“I think we have, actually.” He gave her a crooked grin. “Sorry.”

Bren was headed out the door. “Stop talking. Just…stop talking.”

Zellman followed. “I really am sorry. I don’t even mean it that way. I use ‘hot’ for everything lately—”

“STOP talking! Just stop. Now.”

Their voices carried across the distance, and I remained in place, glancing over at Jordan.

He was looking at me, not holding anything back. He had aged ten years in the last four hours. He blew out another breath, shaking his head. “She quit school, man. Was that my fault?”

I shook my head. “No. It’s hers, all hers. Zellman’s right. She chose. I know you probably reached out.”

“I did. A few times. I kept getting forwarded to Sunday.”

Then she had got the messages. Bren’s too.

“You can only follow your gut, but mine is saying that Tabatha needs to work this out on her own.”

“So what do I do while she does?”

Zellman hollered from outside, “Let’s go! I’m not lying about bowling. I really do like it. I’m going to wipe the floor with all of you losers.”

I grinned, pointing outside. “Apparently, we bowl.”

FROM: Tazsters

TO: Cain Group

SUBJECT: grrrrr

No one is checking their emails tonight. What the hell? I’m in Grant West. Hello. I need hourly updates, none of this whenever you get to it crap. I’m a part of the Wolf Crew. I mean, I’m not, but you guys know what I mean. I’m blood. I can feel Cross’s emotions sometimes. That makes me half him, and that sounds weird.

Fine.

Signing off.

Love everyone.

Did you guys know that band Sustain used to play here a lot? So cool!

Race says you guys suck. Wait. Never mind. He was saying that about his cell reception.

Keep. Me. Updated!

THE BEST TWIN

Also, I’m not liking that I’m not in the ‘Cain group’ email list. So not cool.