Rich Prick by Tijan

38

Blaise

Ifigured since Aspen was dealing with family, I should too.

When I swung into my driveway, my mom’s Prius was parked outside, and so was Stephen’s car. There was another car too, but I didn’t know who it belonged to.

I heard voices as soon as I went inside, but when the door shut behind me, they quieted.

A chair pushed back over the floor.

“Blaise?” my mom called.

“Yeah.” I didn’t want to deal with this.

My mom came down the hallway. “Hey.” She seemed tentative. “Hi. How are you?” She started to reach out, but paused. “What?! Your face.”

I winced. “No. I’m fine.”

“But—”

“I’m good, Mom. I’m fine.”

“Blaise.”

“Mom. Seriously. Not now.” I gentled my tone. “Okay?”

She stared at me, her hands wringing together. Then, she stepped close and gently pulled me in for a hug. “Oh, honey. I’m so sorry.”

It seemed like an eternity had passed since that night. She acted like she hadn’t seen me in months.

I hugged her back. She was my mom.

As soon as she felt my arms, she started crying.

“Oh, God. Mom.”

She gave me another big squeeze before she stepped back. She tried to wipe her tears all dainty like, as if she could absorb them without messing up her makeup.

I shook my head, grabbing a Kleenex. I dabbed it against her face. “Hold still.”

I cleaned her up, and she laughed a little when I was done. “You’ve always done that for me—kept your mother looking good and sane.”

I grunted. “Ship’s long gone for that, Mom.” I gave her a look. “For both of us.” I started to move past her.

“Hey.” She blocked me. “Where’ve you been?”

“We talked about this. He was here.”

“I know, but he’s not anymore, and you’ve still been gone.” She frowned and moved closer, dropping her voice. “Is there—are you in trouble?”

“What? No. I’m not in trouble.” For once. “I’m fine. Just been partying a lot. That’s all.”

“He has a girlfriend,” said a voice from behind her.

Seriously?

Taz had come to stand by the fridge in the kitchen. She gave me a smug look and tossed her hair back. “And he’s been fighting with Cross.”

“Honey.”

I ignored my mom and glared at my sister. “Snitch.”

Taz just grinned, moving back into the kitchen. “Come and eat, brother. You’re late for brunch.”

I gave my mom a look. “Brunch?”

She ran a hand down my back before giving me a firm pat on the shoulder. “Your sister brought her boyfriend over.”

“Yeah.” Taz took a bowl of biscuits to the table as I entered the kitchen. She set it down and filled her glass with orange juice. “We’re talking about graduation parties. I’m having one for me and Cross, whether he wants it or not—and whether he knows it’s happening or not.”

Stephen sat next to my mom’s chair. Sure enough, Taz’s boyfriend was sitting at the table too.

“Come on, Blaise. Sit.” My mom made it sound like I didn’t have a choice. “You owe me two weeks. The least you could do is have brunch with us.”

I needed coffee. With whiskey.

I held up a finger and disappeared into the kitchen for a moment. I couldn’t find the whiskey, but I grabbed the brandy.

Taking my drink, I went back over and sat.

“It’s nice that you didn’t ask Zeke to brunch,” Taz said.

I had my phone in my hand under the table. I smiled at her. “Uh-huh.”

Me: Brunch. My house. Asap.

My phone buzzed two seconds later.

Zeke: On it.

Taz gave me a look. “You just texted him, didn’t you?”

“Uh-huh.” I gave her a closed-mouth smile, sipping my coffee. I needed more brandy.

“Uh, so…” My mom folded her hands together, resting her elbows on the table and smiling brightly at everyone. “We’re only missing Cross and Bren. Then we’d have a full table.”

My phone buzzed again.

Aspen: I’m making Nate go camping with me. I’m not mad at you. I’ll call later, okay?

A whole buttload of tension left my body. I almost felt light-headed.

Me: Okay. I meant what I said.

Aspen: Come camping tonight.

Me: Tell me when and where, I’ll be there.

Aspen: I will.

Taz cleared her throat. “Hello? Excuse us, Blaise. Are we boring you or something?”

The world felt right again, so I grinned and sassed back. “You don’t know me well enough to think of me like that, so that makes me think your real brother’s given you that complex, not me.” I gave her a dark look. “Stop putting your brother issues on me. I’m not your twin’s replacement.”

Her boyfriend started coughing and shot me a look.

I smiled at him too.

His name was Race, and he seemed like a decent guy. He came from money, and he was part of Roussou’s underground fighting ring, but that was all I knew about him.

“You’re a dick,” he told me.

I shrugged. I was. It’d been a dick thing to say. “Honesty. It can be a weapon.”

My mom looked down, her eyes closed. I could almost hear her counting for patience.

And Stephen just looked at me. His eyes were clear, no judgment, nothing clouding them.

So why not?“I have to ask, Stephen. Did you divorce your wife in the hopes of starting a new family with my mom and me?” I gave him a questioning look. “Because you missed the boat with us. I’ve met your other son. You’re better off with him.”

“Blaise!” My mom’s chair scraped against the floor, and she grabbed my arm, yanking me out of my seat.

I was more surprised than anything.

I went with her, and she dragged me to the back hallway, toward her room. Deviating to the basement, I jogged down the stairs and veered into my room.

She trailed me. “I don’t understand why you’re always so mean. That man upstairs stood up for you—”

I gave her a scowl, rifling through my drawers. “I don’t need anyone standing up for me.” I grabbed a bag and began filling it with clothes and shit. “And if he hadn’t beat the shit out of Griffith, I would’ve. Learned how to fight back in New York out of necessity, Mom. You were just usually too baked out of your head to notice.”

Toiletries.

What else would I need for tomorrow?

A suit.

Crap. Had I even brought any suits from New York?

I headed for the closet.

She followed me, standing in the doorway. “I was not baked out of my head.”

“You were—stoned, wasted, drunk. Does it matter? I don’t blame you.” I tempered this with a smile as I put my hands on a suit I hadn’t remembered I even owned.

Shit. Would I actually need this? I should take it, just in case. I moved past her, tossing it on the bed and headed back to the closet.

“He was abusive. He was verbally and emotionally abusive to you, and he was verbally, mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive to me. That’s the way the cookie crumbled. It was life. We dealt with it. You divorced him, and now he’s out of our lives. So yay you, Mom. You did stand up for me. You don’t have to have any guilt there anymore.” I grabbed a bunch of clothes and paused to pat her shoulder, giving her a wide smile. “Thumbs-up, Marie.”

“Fuck you,” she hissed.

I was being a dick, such a dick, but I was numb to it.

I wanted distance.

I wanted away.

I wanted Aspen, but I couldn’t have Aspen so I’d pack, go to Zeke’s, and get wasted. When Aspen called, I’d get a ride to her or I’d sober up so I could drive to her, and then I’d be okay again.

“What is wrong with you?” my mother asked.

I smirked. “Lots. We know this.”

She sucked in a ragged breath, and I saw the tears.

Hell. I hated when she cried. I really hated it.

I tried to tune her out, but I heard her say, “I am sorry, Blaise.”

I paused, not seeing what I was stuffing into the bag.

She kept crying. “I didn’t protect you from him, and I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, for everything. I wanted you for myself. I was scared Stephen would take you from me. I’m…” She hesitated. “I went to see a therapist this past week.”

I stood there, holding whatever was in my hand, and I didn’t move.

I didn’t dare move.

“It felt good, talking about everything. I’m going to go again. I actually—” A sad laugh came from her. “—have it set up for the next six months. She thought I needed that many sessions considering what we left behind, you and me.”

I closed my eyes.

“Stephen’s the one who suggested her. He said he went to see her right after he left his ex. He said Taz is thinking about seeing her too.”

She was going to take a knife and drag it across my chest. I was just waiting…

“I can’t control you. You have your own money. You’re eighteen. You have more power as an adult now than I ever felt I had, so I’m not going to try to be your parent. Not now. I messed that up by staying with him for so long.”

I knew tears were still sliding down her face. But she sounded strong. She sounded resigned.

I’d never heard my mother sound like that.

After a moment, she shifted gears. “Taz said you have a girlfriend?”

My eyes opened, and I looked down. I’d been holding a pair of socks. Snorting, I tossed them aside and rifled through the bag. What the hell had I even thrown in here?

“What’s her name?”

None of your business.

What the hell else did I need?

“Where’d you meet her?”

I dropped the bag and turned around. “I’m not talking about her.”

“Okay. Yeah.” She tried to smile, but those tears.

I hated when she cried. Cursing, I hauled my mom into my arms.

She sniffled, tensing, but I cradled the back of her head, and that was enough. She dissolved in my arms.

I didn’t know if that was right or not. It was what it was.

I waited until she had stopped crying. Zeke would be here by now. I pulled back and smiled down at her. “Cheer up, Mom. You got a pain-in-the-ass son who will someday not be such a pain in the ass.”

She laughed, flicking the last of her tears away.

“And it seems you have a good guy upstairs.” I bent down, resting my forehead to hers. “I will try to not be such a dick.”

Pulling away, I studied her.

“You like Taz, huh?”

She smiled, bobbing her head. “I do. She’s a good girl, just lonely. I can understand that.”

A bit of my wall crumbled. I didn’t like thinking of my mom as lonely.

“I think counseling will be good for you, Mom.”

Her eyes turned sad, and she eased back a step. She cupped the side of my face. “You’re such a handsome boy. I got lucky having you. Real lucky. Despite the things you say, you’ve always taken care of me when I needed it.”

I batted away her hand. “Okay. Sentimental shit is my cue to leave.”

She reached up and held the sides of my face. “Let me say this. I know you are hurting. I know I can’t help you with that, but I also know you persevere. That’s your trait. You’re always strong, and you always get through whatever it is you’re dealing with. And I can’t take credit for that. That’s you. That’s all you, and I want you to be proud of that.”

Her eyes flicked to the ceiling and back to mine. “As for them, and the changes in our lives, it’ll all work out. I just want you to keep working on you. And whoever this girl is, I can tell she’s good for you. I’ve always seen fragments of the man you’ll become, and lately, I’ve been seeing more and more of them. You will become a man I’m proud of, and I know this because you’re already a son I’m so proud of.” She hugged me tightly. “So proud of you.”

I let her hug me.

“Mom, I can’t be a dick with you being a Pinterest hologram and saying all this cheesy shit.” But I grinned as I straightened a strand of her hair.

I loved my mom.

I might be a massive dick, but everything she’d said was right.

I pressed a kiss to her forehead and whispered, “Love you.”

Zeke was standing in the hallway just inside the back door when I came up from the basement.

His face lit up when he saw me. “Bruh!”

“Let’s head.”

His face faltered. “Dude. Brunch?”

“I’ll pay.”

“Dude.” He grinned again, and we left.

I tried to tell myself I wasn’t being a pansy when I pulled my phone out later and texted Taz.

Me: Congrats on your graduation tomorrow. I’ll come to your party if you want me there.