The Last Second Chance by Lucy Score
24
“Relax, Jojo,” Jax said, covering her hand on the seat’s armrest with his own.
The plane leveled off its ascent as they headed west. Away from the farm and the horses. Away from her house and her dog.
L.A. was not her idea of a vacation—sign her up for a booze fest on a tropical beach—but she had to admit, she was curious about seeing the lure of the place Jax had called home for so many years.
“Are you sure Carter can handle everything?”
“You already know the answer to that.”
“What if Waffles misses me and won’t eat?”
“Then you can video chat with him and make him eat.”
Joey knew she was being ridiculous but couldn’t seem to help it. It had been a long time since she’d been so far away from the stables and the farm. And the last time, a family beach vacation with her parents and sister, she hadn’t been in charge of a dog, thirty horses, and a calendar full of lessons.
She stretched her long legs forward, appreciating the legroom that first class provided, and wondered what that extra twelve inches cost. When she’d asked, Jax told her not to worry about it. The studio paid for travel to premieres, which was good news for her that she didn’t have to dip into her nest egg and scrunch herself into coach between Jax and some guy who smelled like an ashtray and snored.
She smiled to herself. “It’s like we’re finally taking that trip we talked about that night in the car,” she told him.
Jax flinched and rubbed her hand silently.
“What’s wrong? Are you nervous about flying?” Joey asked.
Jax shook his head. “I just don’t like thinking about that night.”
“I don’t remember much about the… after,” she confessed. “What do you remember?”
What happened to make him leave the hospital, pack a bag, and leave her? What happened in those hours that changed the course of both their lives?
“Jojo, I really don’t want to talk about it.”
She bit her tongue and let it drop. Maybe not knowing was better somehow? Probably not.
Jax sighed heavily next to her. “After the crash, it was so quiet. It smelled like engine coolant—you know, that maple syrup smell? I couldn’t see much. I’d hit my head on the steering wheel, and there was blood in my eyes.” His voice tightened at the memories.
Joey squeezed his hand.
“I looked over at you, touched you. There was so much blood, and you weren’t moving. You were slumped forward over the seatbelt. I thought you were gone.” He whispered the words.
“I’m not exactly sure what happened next. I think there was a car behind us that saw the whole thing. The guy pulled me out of the car, but we couldn’t get your door open. You still weren’t moving.” He shook his head.
“I got back in the car with you. There were lights, sirens coming, and then I could see where the blood was coming from.” He took her right hand, rolled her arm over and traced the thin scar that zigged and zagged its way from wrist to elbow.
“The guy who stopped was a nurse, and as soon as he said ‘artery,’ my heart stopped. I took off my shirt and wrapped it around your arm, put pressure on it, and the next thing I know is the EMTs are there, saying they got you. But I couldn’t let go.”
Joey turned her arm over, pulled his hand into her lap. She felt guilty that her need to know hurt him by remembering. She wished she could take the memories from him. Wished that she could change the events of the past for them both. But that wasn’t possible, and the only way out of those memories was through them.
She didn’t want him to hurt anymore, so she changed the subject.
“So what kind of a dress am I going to have to wear tomorrow?”
* * *
Everything about L.A. was excessive.From the glossy black Uber with tinted windows that picked them up at the airport to the hotel suite that was bigger than the first floor of her house. “This shower could hold twelve people.” Joey’s voice echoed off the bathroom walls and fixtures that gleamed gold in the late afternoon sun. “Even the walls are marble.”
Jax leaned against the doorframe and watched her lean in to examine the goose-necked tub faucet. “This is insane. Do you know how many horses I could buy with what it cost to outfit this bathroom?”
She pushed past him and walked into the suite’s bedroom. “This can’t be a king-size. This is like NBA-player-size,” she said, flopping down on the cloud-like mattress. “I can roll one, two, three, four, five, six times before I get to the other edge,” she said as she demonstrated. Jax let her flop over on her back in the center of the bed before launching himself at her.
“Do all screenwriters get digs like this?” Joey asked as Jax settled himself between her legs, resting his weight on his hands.
“Ones who win side bets with a producer do. Do you want to have dinner here or go out?”
“Do we have to wear clothes if we have dinner here?” Joey asked dipping her fingers into the scooped neckline of her shirt.
“Mmm,” Jax nuzzled into her neck. “Clothing is entirely optional. I’ll call room service.”
They dined in their suite, enjoying wine, white sea bass, and a steak so tender Joey barely needed to chew it. The sun set low over the hill, casting a rosy glow through the wall of glass. Slow rock from the state-of-the-art stereo played softly in the background.
Joey could still see the shadows of memories in those gray eyes. She’d put them there with her questions on the plane. She reached across the table and wrapped her fingers around his wrist. “Jax.”
He lifted his gaze from the wine glass he’d been staring into pensively.
“I’m going to whip out my Blue Moon hippie logic here. Did you ever think that maybe the accident was supposed to happen?” Joey asked.
“Like destiny?”
She nodded. “And destiny isn’t a mistake.”
“So I was meant to leave?”
“Jax, we’re going to the premiere of a movie you wrote. One of the movies you wrote. Don’t think for a second that would have happened without the accident. Sure, maybe we would have gone on our road trip, but we would have come back. I would have made you come back. I had our future already mapped out, and L.A. and movies and orgy showers were not part of the plan.”
“I could have said no.”
Joey grinned. “Please. Eighteen-year-old Jax couldn’t say no to me. He was too hampered by respect and wanting desperately to make sure I got everything I wanted.”
“Sounds like twenty-seven-year-old Jax too.” He smiled wryly.
“Maybe it does.”
“But you need to consider something else with that Blue Moon hippie logic. If I was meant to leave, then I was also meant to come back.”
It was Joey’s turn to study her wine. “Maybe you were.”
“And if I was meant to come back, then maybe we’re meant to be.”
She took a long swallow of wine and stared hard at the last sliver of sun as it disappeared behind the far-off hill. “Maybe we are.”
She said it softly, but the way his gaze sharpened, the way his muscles tightened under her hand, she knew he heard her. Knew he heard the significance.
“You’re different now,” she said quietly. “But so am I. We’re both stronger, sharper. We challenge the hell out of each other, but you get me. You honestly get me. And I keep waiting and watching, looking for that sign of ‘he’s going to bolt again’ or ‘he’s going to break my heart again.’ And dammit, Jax, I’m so tired of waiting and watching.”
The intensity of his gaze burned through her. She was under a spotlight, and he was the one watching and waiting now.
“What exactly are you saying, Joey?”
She could feel the tension coursing through him like a current. He wanted the words, and for the first time, she wanted to say them.
“I’m saying that…” God, she just couldn’t get them out. Eight years of walls and hurt. She took a slow deep breath. “I’m saying… I have to go to the bathroom.”
She stood up and ran full speed into the cavern of marble. Slamming the door, she pulled out her cell phone and started typing frantically.
Joey: HELP! I’m trying to tell Jax how I feel, and the words won’t come out. So I locked myself in the bathroom.
Summer responded immediately.
Summer: Okay. Don’t panic! First thing’s first. Look in the mirror.
Joey: I am not giving myself a pep talk in the mirror.
Summer: No, dumbass, you’re checking your makeup. If you’re making a declaration of love that’s eight thousand years in the making, you’re doing it looking good.
Joey rolled her eyes and then did as Summer told her. She swiped a finger under each eye, ran a brush through her hair, and checked her teeth for dinner.
Joey: Okay. Reflection doesn’t look nearly as freaked out as I feel.
Gia chimed in a second later.
Gia: Oh, holy moly! This is so exciting!! Quick question. What exactly are your feelings for Jax?
Joey: I want to tell him that I’m willing to give us another chance.
A series of smiley face emojis exploded on her screen.
Joey: Not helping.
Gia: Sorry! Also you’re going to have to get out there soon because Beckett just asked me why I was jumping on the couch, and I told him. So he’s totally going to text Jax.
Summer: Ditto. Minus the jumping.
“Shit,” Joey muttered. She tossed her phone and her unhelpful friends onto the bathroom counter and stormed through the door before she could lose her nerve… and before big mouths Beckett and Carter could get to Jax first.
“Put your phone down,” she said when she spotted him by the window, phone in hand.
“Okaaaaay.” Jax put the phone down on the table as if it were a gun and she the cops.
Joey stopped inches in front of him.
“I’m saying let’s plant a damn garden.”
She was in his arms before the words were completely out. “This is all I’ve wanted for so long, and all I can think is to ask if you’re sure. Are you sure, Jojo? Are you really sure?”
She wet her lips and nodded. “As sure as I can be.”
He brought his lips to hers, his fingers gently holding her steady. It was a slow burn, and Joey felt the locks inside that had been sealed so long ago start to give.
“I’m scared.” She hadn’t realized she’d said the words out loud until Jax pulled back a millimeter.
“I am too,” he whispered over her mouth. “Terrified, actually.”
“But we’re still going to do this, right?”
“Jojo, all the best things are scary. And you’re the scariest.”
“That’s weirdly sweet,” she said, moving in to feel his heat against her. To get closer to him and make everything else disappear. Her fingers dug into his shirt, desperate to cling. “Did you know everything is always better when you’re touching me?”
He had no words, but the fire in his eyes told her he felt the same. His hands were moving down her arms, up her back, stroking her and keeping her close. A sensual prison that she had no desire to escape.
“Show me what it’s like, Jax.”
“What what’s like, Jojo?”
“Show me what it’s like to be loved.”
Emotion keen and bright lit his cool gray eyes. His hands gentled and returned to trace her jaw. “You’re the reason my heart beats.” He whispered the words against her lips, sweetly softly.
She shivered, and Jax drew her closer. When his lips pressed hers, she felt a slow burn spread through her body like the glow of a sunrise. New beginnings all had a shine like this, bright and warm.
He sampled her slowly as if he had all the time in the world to explore her. Joey’s breath came in hitches. “I can’t breathe,” she whispered.
Jax released her mouth and brought his forehead to hers. His thumbs made lazy circles on the hollows of her cheeks. They swayed from side to side to the music they’d both forgotten.
“Better?” he asked, his voice a rasp.
She nodded.
He lowered to her again, gently tasting. He turned her slowly so her back was to the cool glass of the window. There, with the city behind her, he lifted the hem of her t-shirt and slid his hands under it. His palms skimmed up, and her arms rose of their own accord. Free of her shirt, Joey brought her hands to Jax’s broad, shoulders as he sunk to his knees.
He rained kisses across her chest and down her belly, and when his fingers dipped into the waistband of her jeans, her head fell back against the glass, hitting it with a thump. He worked her jeans down her legs, letting his fingertips skim the outside of her bare legs as the denim bunched at her ankles. He guided one foot at a time out of her jeans and threw them aside before working his way back up.
His busy mouth spent a few extra seconds sampling the flesh around her simple black briefs before pressing against the exact spot that thrummed a hard beat.
Her words were gone, her voice missing. All she could do was sigh with pleasure as she felt his tongue brush flesh through cotton. Too soon, he rose higher, pausing again to nibble his way over the curves of both breasts, his tongue teasing the edge of the black lace that separated him from her.
When his hands skimmed around her back, Joey bit her lip. With a deft flick, he released her bra closure. “Slide the straps down your arms,” he ordered, and she complied without hesitation.
Her hands shook as she knocked the straps off both shoulders, letting them fall to her elbows. When she dropped her hands, the bra tumbled to the floor, and his callused palms were there waiting to catch her breasts.
His thumbs brushed her nipples, once, twice, inciting. Another gasp tore from her lips. “Jax.” His name rose unbidden from a throat tight with emotion.
“Mine,” he said, claiming the pert tip of one breast with his mouth. Joey’s fingers dug into his shoulders. A current of lust ignited in her veins at the intimate touch. He was worshipping her body with the unhurried patience of the truly reverent.
His tongue lathed her nipple until her knees buckled. He caught her, strong hands gripping the curve of her hips. He pressed against her, bracing her against the window, and then moved his attention to her other breast.
As he licked and tasted, Joey felt the ache between her legs expand in intensity until it consumed her. When she felt his fingers skim the waistband of her underwear, her pulse ratcheted up another notch. There was nothing in the world that she needed more in that moment than to be filled by him.
As if reading her thoughts, Jax hooked two fingers in the front of her briefs. He dragged them down her legs, leaving her bared to him, body and soul. And then his mouth was on her where she craved him most. She widened her stance for him, and he took advantage of the new angle, spreading her slick folds with one hand while bracing her against the glass with his other.
When his tongue skimmed over her pulsing core, Joey’s hips ground against him, desperate for more, deeper, faster, harder. She buried her fingers in his hair, gripping the dark waves in a tight hold.
He was brushing and stroking with the rough texture of his tongue, and when he slid two fingers home, stretching up inside her, she knew that a release unlike any other was eminent. Leisurely, he lapped at her electrified nub until she anticipated each lick with the thrust of her hips.
His fingers flexed in her, brushing that sweet spot, and she was lost as the ground disappeared from her feet and she hurtled into space. The orgasm robbed her of all senses, leaving her only with the shock of harsh pleasure ripping through her from her core and spiraling outward.
She began to slide down the glass inch by inch as the vibrations quaked through her. Jax waited until the last of her release dissolved before picking her up and carrying her to the bed.
“What was that?” Joey murmured into the crook of his neck.
His answer gutted her. “That was love,” he whispered.
Jax placed her on the bed as if she was the finest china.
“Come be with me,” she pleaded.
He brought her knuckles to his lips, brushed over them gently. “We have all night.”
“You have all your clothes on,” she reminded him.
He smiled so tenderly that Joey felt her heart clench in her chest.
“I can fix that,” he promised. He stood by the side of the bed and, without breaking their eye contact, pulled his shirt over his head. He tossed it carelessly behind him, and Joey’s eyes hungrily took in the perfect build he revealed. Broad shoulders, a chest built for shows of strength, muscles tapering into chiseled abs and narrow hips. God, he was magnificent.
Reading her gaze, Jax took his time sliding his jeans down thumbs brushing the indents inside his hipbones, the exact spot that Joey wanted to bite. He wore boxer briefs in a sedate navy. They were stretched impossibly tight over his straining erection. It was amazing what just touching her did to him without any provocation.
His thumbs hooked into the waistband of his underwear, and Joey felt her mouth go dry. She’d seen him naked, felt him inside her, yet every time the anticipation nearly killed her. Tonight, it might actually do just that.
Her breath came out in a whoosh when he pushed the barrier down his legs. His impressive hard-on sprung free, and Joey wet her lips. “Can I touch you?”
Wordlessly, he moved closer to the bed, and Joey reached out, fingers grazing his thick shaft. She saw the clench in his jaw and knew that he had a firm grip on his control. Joey wrapped her fingers around him and stroked, watching in fascination as a single bead of moisture appeared at the crown.
Jax’s hand flashed out and grabbed her wrist. “Tonight is about you, Joey.”
He climbed onto the bed, the mattress dipping slightly under his weight as he crawled over her. Joey shivered as he lowered himself on to her, flesh to flesh. His weight on her was an anchor, keeping her still and safe. He rested on his forearms, his fingers toying with her hair, thumbs stroking the side of her face.
She opened her legs and sighed as he settled between her thighs. The crown of his cock nestled into her heat with the promise of unspeakable pleasure.
“I can feel your heart pounding,” he said, nibbling a path along her jawline, the scrape of his teeth heightening her senses.
Joey lifted her hips straining toward him, needing him to fill her, wanting to feel that powerful surge as he entered her to lay his claim. Beads of sweat clung to their bodies as the anticipation built.
“I belong to you, Joey,” he said, raining kisses soft as butterflies’ wings on her face. “I always have. You know that don’t you?”
She nodded, eyes tightly closed to hold back tears. She had always known it. She had always had his heart, and he had hers. From childhood games to teenage angst to the grief of a lost love, her love, her body, her soul all belonged to one man.
“Say the words, Joey.” His voice was low and rough.
She took a short breath, her toes curling against his legs as she begged him with her body to take her, to make her whole.
“I belong to you,” she whispered. A single hot tear worked its way free and slid down her temple into her hair.
“Now tell me you love me. I need to hear the words.”
Joey felt like her heart was being squeezed. Emotions from terror to elation raced through her body. Her mind had given up its hold on the situation a long time ago. It was just her heart and her gut.
Jax pressed his hips into her and the broad, smooth tip of his erection was encircled by her wet entrance. “Say it.”
“I love you, Jax. I love you. I love you.” She chanted the words until, with a single powerful thrust, he was inside her. Filling her, loving her, branding her.
A cry rose from her throat. She didn’t know what it meant that the words she’d guarded for so long had been ripped free. She only knew that he was with her, as close as two people could be. Bonded by a need so great it could destroy them if they weren’t careful.
She opened her eyes to look at him to see what her words had done to him. His eyes were squeezed shut, his jaw set. Steeped in pleasure and purpose, he began to move in her. And when his lashes fluttered up, when those cool gray eyes looked into the depths of her soul, she knew. She knew what it was like to be loved, to be worshipped.
Tears fell unbound as he slid out slowly, achingly, before he glided back in filling her to the hilt. He set the pace, a slow and steady climb up into the stars.
She could already feel the quickening inside her. The flutter signaling her release, her surrender to his body. Her heart had already surrendered.
“I love you,” she whispered, the words unbidden this time, and stroked her hands up his back. Saw his eyes go glassy, saw his throat work against the strain of emotion.
Joey was vulnerable and open, stripped bare for him. Never before had she been this raw. Never before had she welcomed the exposure of being completely real and free.
His thumb brushed her trembling lower lip before his fingers dove into her hair. “My beautiful Joey.” He sent her over the edge with another measured thrust, and as the pleasure of the moment clawed its way out of her throat in a scream, she felt him stiffen, heard him groan on his own release. They moved together, her release draining his, until there was nothing left but them and the stars in the night sky behind them.
