Loathe to Love You by Ali Hazelwood



            “You made it,” he says, like I really did just get off a jet plane. “You’re here.”

            He’s smiling. I smile, too, and furrow my brow. “What? You didn’t think I’d actually graduate?”

            “Wasn’t sure you’d ever pass your Water Resources class.”

            I burst out laughing. “What? Just because you saw me, with your own eyes, put zero effort into my assignment?”

            “That did play a role, yeah.”

            “You should read the stuff I BS’d about you in that report.”

            “Ah, yes. What STDs did I have to battle to get to where I am today?”

            “What STDs did you not?”

            He sighs. A throat clears and we both turn— Oh, right. Alexis is also here. Looking between us, for some reason with saucer eyes.

            “Oh, Ian, this is Alexis. She’s starting today, too. Alexis, this is—”

            “Ian Floyd,” she says, sounding vaguely breathless. “I’m a fan.”

            Ian seems vaguely alarmed, as though the idea of having fans befuddles him. Alexis doesn’t seem to notice and asks me, “You two know each other?”

            “Ah . . . yeah, we do. We had a . . .” I gesture vaguely. “A thing. Years ago.”

            “A thing?” Alexis’s eyes widen even more.

            “Oh no, I didn’t mean that kind of thing. We did some kind of—one of those—what are they called . . . ?”

            “An informational interview,” Ian patiently provides.

            “An informational interview?” Alexis sounds skeptical. She stares at Ian, who is still staring at me.

            “Yeah. Kind of. It devolved into a . . .” Into what? Us almost fucking on NASA property? You wish, Hannah.

            “A debugging session,” Ian says. Then clears his throat.

            I let out a laugh. “Right. That.”

            “Debugging session?” Alexis sounds even more skeptical. “That doesn’t sound fun.”

            “Oh, it was,” Ian says. He’s still staring at me. Like he’s found his long-missing house keys and is afraid he’ll lose them again if he looks away.

            “Yeah.” I cannot help making my smile just a tad suggestive. An experiment. I seem to do lots of those when he’s around. “Lots of fun.”

            “Right.” Ian finally looks away, smiling the same way. “Lots.”

            “How did you guys meet?” Alexis asks, more suspicious by the second.

            “Oh, my best friend is Ian’s cousin-or-something.”

            Ian nods. “How is . . .” He briefly stumbles on the name. “I want to say Melissa?”

            “Mara. Your cousin’s name is Mara. Keep up, will you?” I fail to sound stern. “Have you not talked to her since she put us in touch?”

            “I don’t believe we talked back then, either. Everything happened through—”

            “—Great-Aunt Delphina, right. How’s the Home Depot video?”

            “Lowe’s. I hear it’s making a resurgence since Uncle Mitch started hosting Thanksgiving.”

            I laugh. “Well, Mara is great. She also graduated with her Ph.D. and recently moved to D.C. to work for the EPA. No interest in space stuff. Just, you know . . . saving Earth.”

            “Oh.” He doesn’t seem too impressed. “It’s a good fight.”

            “But you’re glad someone else is shouldering it while you and I spend our days launching cool gadgets into space?”

            He chuckles. “More or less.”

            “Okay, this is very . . .” Alexis, again. We both turn to her: her eyes are narrow, and she sounds shrill. Honestly, I keep forgetting she’s here. “I’ve never seen two people . . .” She gestures between us. “You guys are clearly . . .” Ian and I exchange a baffled glance. “I’m going to leave you to it,” she says inscrutably. Then she turns on her heel, and Ian and I are alone.