Feuds and Reckless Fury by K. Webster

 

Canyon

Three Months Later…

Watching Dad press a kiss to Quinn’s lips over dinner at the resort should have me feeling annoyed or angry. But, having spent so much time with them now that Carrie and I live at Quinn’s with Dad, I’m used to their disgustingly sweet public displays of affection. Now that they’re officially married as of two days ago, they’ve added on a whole new layer of giddy love. If Mom wasn’t doing so well, I’d probably be able to focus my animosity on Dad. As it stands, though, I’m happy.

I owe every ounce of my happiness to Alis. As if he can sense that he’s on my mind, his hand sneaks over to mine beneath the table, giving it a squeeze. After a full day on the slopes, we’re all exhausted and ready for a relaxing night in. I’m eager to pull Alis into his bed, strip him down, and fuck him like there’s no tomorrow. The image of him naked and shivering beneath me has a filthy grin quirking up one side of my lips.

Alis shoots me a warning glare, but then the bastard brushes his palm over my dick as he pulls his hand away. I grip his wrist, not letting him escape, and bring it back to my dick so he can feel the steel straining in my pants. He rubs at it, his dark eyes lingering at my mouth.

My phone buzzes, and I let go of his hand to retrieve it. Seeing Mom’s name on the screen never ceases to bring a smile to my face.

Mom: We have an offer on the house!

A pang of sadness punches me in the gut.

Me: Great news.

Mom: The house is too big for us, Canny. Too many memories. It’ll be better this way. Fresh start for everyone.

Mom’s fresh start began when she left rehab. She moved in with Uncle Adam in Orlando. Since he works from home running an online marketing company, he’s able to keep Mom company. Plus, he was about to hire someone to help him with bookkeeping and filing, so Mom’s going to do it instead. It’ll be better for her in the long run, but it still makes my chest ache at the thought of our house selling.

Me: Yeah, I know. Tell Uncle Adam I said hey.

I send her a selfie, and she sends one back with Uncle Adam giving her bunny ears. Seeing her smile and like her old self brings relief rushing into me.

Mom: You know I love you, baby, right?

Me: I know. Love you too, Mom.

A couple of weeks ago, after one of my track meets, Mom and I went to lunch to talk. I’d been secretly pleased she attended the event but was still upset with her. She apologized for everything again, but that time it actually hit home. I had my mom back, and things were going to be okay. She and Dad decided that until she was in a better place, Carrie and I would continue to live with him for the time being. Though I hate what he did to her, he’s been supportive and helpful when it comes to Mom. I know he still loves her in his own way, which I’m thankful for. Plus, it’s hard to remain bitter when I gained something out of their break-up.

Alis.

My Wonderland.

He leans in, brushing his lips along the shell of my ear. “You okay?”

Turning slightly, greedily seeking his nearness, I whisper back, “Am now.”

All too soon, Alis pulls away, severing our connection. It’s times like these that it’s hard for me to hold back. He’s mine, and sometimes I want to shout it to the world. But having him in secret is better than not having him at all.

After a filling meal, we all retreat back to the suite we’re sharing with Carrie. Dad and Quinn cuddle up on the couch together, much like I wish Alis and me could. I settle for sitting on the floor in front of the love seat he’s sprawled out on so I can be close. Carrie frowns from one of the armchairs, seemingly dazed.

Things are still strained with us.

She slept with my best friend. Ex-best friend. And it’s not even like they’re a couple. It’d been different if she actually loved Damon or he loved her. I might have forgiven him for it. It wasn’t like that, though. It was just a way for him to get his dick wet, uncaring of the consequences that forever ruined our friendship. I mean, she’s sixteen, for fuck’s sake. He’s eighteen. I still want to kill him for it to this day.

“Colin texted me again,” Alis grumbles.

I twist my body to scowl at him. “What’d he say this time?”

Colin Wheaton has been a thorn in our sides for three months straight. He didn’t just go away, but he also didn’t do anything to force our hand with the lawyers. It’s like…he actually wants to be in Alis’s life.

“Wants me to visit him in St. Louis. Sightsee or see a Cardinals game or some crap.” He lets out an annoyed huff. “Of course, I’m not going, and I told him as much.”

Quinn sighs. “Maybe—”

“No,” I bark out. “Did you forget the fact that he fucking killed someone on your porch?”

I’ll be goddamned if I let Alis go anywhere near that psychopath. Dad shoots me a stern look, but I ignore it. I know both he and Quinn question my newfound overprotectiveness over Alis, yet they never mention it. I’m not exactly ready to explain it because they’re not going to like the answer.

I love Alis.

I loved Naomi because she’s easy to love, but this feels different. Like there’s more substance and depth to it. Alis gets me like no one else can. When we’re alone, lost in our own little world, my guard drops, and I can just be.

Canyon.

Not an emotionally brittle high school senior who’s had to deal with the shattering of his family and the loss of his best friends.

Just Canyon.

Happy. Relaxed. Hopeful.

When I’m with Alis, I’m solely his. He protects me in his own way. Shields me from my dark, inner thoughts when I get pissed about Dad and distracts me. It’s so intense when we’re both naked and panting desperately. Each second I’m inside him feels like an eternity of bliss.

I love Alis Sommers, and he loves me too.

Even if neither of us has actually said the words. I can feel them with every weighted, heated look he sends me. With how he holds me after we have sex, clinging to me like I might vanish at any second. His smiles are wide for me, and his mahogany eyes grow warm anytime our gazes connect.

“I’m going to bed,” Carrie mutters as she climbs out of the chair. “I don’t feel so well.”

She disappears into the room that’s besides mine. My room in this suite houses my stuff, but I spent it in Alis’s bed last night. Tonight I’ll do the same. Just like at home, we’re glued together in his bed until daylight forces us apart.

“I wish you’d block him,” I grumble, my mind drifting back to Colin.

“It won’t do much,” Alis reminds me. “He just texts me from a different number. At least when we text, he doesn’t try to show up anymore.”

We grow quiet, but then the haunting, sad notes of Carrie’s violin travel through the walls of her room and into the living room. She’s been doing a lot of that lately—practicing feverishly and at all hours. Sometimes, Alis will critique for her, and other times he only has praise.

“She’s really good,” Quinn says to Ryan, squeezing his hand.

“Mrs. Weston is giving her a spring concert solo,” Alis reveals with a proud smile. “It’s a hard piece, and she’ll have to work her ass off for it, but I know she can do it.”

Alis’s smile brightens not just the room but every dark crevice in my heart. The thudding inside my chest is relentless and never-ending whenever he’s near. Absently, I reach for his hand, needing to touch him. His smile falters, and he holds up a fist for me to bump it.

Right.

Like brothers, not lovers.

I knock my fist to his, gritting my teeth. It gets harder and harder to hide what feels natural with Alis. So often, I want to pull him into my lap while watching movies in the living room with everyone or pin him to the counter in the kitchen while I kiss him dizzy. There have been several times, like just now, where I’ve gone to physically connect with him in public. Luckily, he’s a lot more aware of our surroundings than I am. He always puts a stop to it before it progresses.

Irritation claws at my throat, making it feel hoarse and raw. I want to blurt it out right now. Tell our dads we’re in love and that we’re something serious. Not just stepbrothers, but more. That we have a future. This thing between us is barely budding, and I can already tell it’ll be the most beautiful thing I’ve ever known. It would be like ripping off a Band-Aid. Just tell Dad and Quinn that Alis is my boyfriend.

They love us.

They wouldn’t freak out or disown us.

Right?

I can feel it in my bones. Sure, they’d be pissed and probably yell, but we’d get through it just like we’ve gotten through everything else.

All thoughts cease to a halt when Alis’s long, capable fingers drift through my hair at the nape of my neck. It’s subtle and probably not noticeable by our dads, but it has my eyes fluttering closed and a low rumble vibrating through me. He doesn’t move his hand away but instead stealthily plays with my hair as our dads discuss our plans for the next day. At some point, I must fall asleep because I wake to Alis straddling my lap. For a split second, my heart races with excitement and relief.

They finally know we’re together.

It doesn’t take long to realize, though, that our dads have retreated to their own suite. Disappointment takes a back seat as lust begins to drive. Alis spears his fingers into my hair and angles my head back so he can kiss me. My palms find his fantastic ass, squeezing hard enough he whimpers.

God, I’ll never get enough of him.

I slide my hands up under his sweatshirt, skimming over his muscular back, worshiping every inch I can reach. His back arches as he grinds his ass against my dick.

“I need you,” I murmur, tugging his sweatshirt from his body. “Now.”

He gasps against my lips at my fingertips, teasing his hard nipples. “Bedroom.”

“No, here,” I challenge with a nip to his bottom lip. “Where anyone could see.”

Pulling from our kiss, he frowns. “No, man.”

“No one will really see, Wonderland.” I lean forward to capture his neck with a claiming suck. “I want to fuck you right here, though.”

His fingers grip my hair, and he yanks my head back so I’m forced to look into his dark, fathomless stare. “It’s reckless.”

“We’re reckless,” I remind him.

A stormy expression passes over his features. “We can’t be. Not if we plan on remaining an ‘us.’”

Anger churns in my gut. “I’m tired of hiding. It’s not fair.”

“Life’s not fair,” he growls. “Besides, you promised.”

“Months ago,” I bark back, losing my temper. “I promised back then, but things have changed.”

“Nothing’s changed,” he hisses, his words sharp and stinging. “Nothing.”

I glower at him, trying like hell to read into his words. What the fuck does that even mean? Nothing’s changed? Is he insane? Everything’s changed. We went from enemies to lovers to boyfriends to brothers to this. An us. A forever kind of us with a future. With fucking cats to chase away the goddamn mice.

“Everything’s changed,” I whisper. “I want to love you freely. In front of everyone, especially our family.”

He scrambles away from me, gaping at me like I’ve lost my mind. Maybe I finally found it. It’s not a big deal. Dad owes me forgiveness anyway since I gave it to him after what he did to Mom and us. Quinn adores Alis and loves him unconditionally. Alis is delusional if he thinks otherwise.

“No,” Alis snaps, his voice shrill as he scampers away from me. “We can’t.”

He storms away toward his bedroom, leaving me sprawled out on the floor with an annoying erection that he’s clearly not in the mood to take care of. I spring to my feet, darting after him. The fucker actually tries to shove the door against me as I attempt to come inside. Luckily, I’m bigger and stronger than him. This pisses him off based on the furious snarl he lets loose when I elbow into his room despite his best efforts to keep me out.

“Stop,” I command, grabbing him by the shoulders and shoving him against the wall. “What the hell is your problem?”

His pink lips are puffy and red from our kissing. My mouth waters to taste him again, but I’m mad at his bitchiness. I’m not kissing his beautiful, perfect mouth until he loses his attitude problem.

All emotion floods from his features, and he drops his gaze to my mouth. “Canyon…”

“Mmm?”

I can’t help myself. Even when he annoys me, I need to touch and kiss him. He’s mine, and I’m his. It’s just how it is. I nuzzle my nose against his.

“I think…” He swallows hard as though it’s a struggle to form words.

“I love you too,” I whisper as he murmurs out the words, “I think we should break up.”

Time stops at the same time my heart does.

What. The. Fuck?