Fox by Harley Wylde
Chapter Nine
Raven
The feel of Fox’s body pressing mine into the mattress didn’t scare me the way I’d thought it would. If anything, I found it comforting. He kissed me, soft and slow, taking his time as if he were savoring me. My nipples were still hard and brushed against his chest, sending little sparks of pleasure through me. A bit of apprehension lingered in the back of my mind, but I’d already promised to stay with Fox. I wanted to do this, not only for me but for us and the relationship we were building.
I’d always laughed at the romances where the hero and heroine took one look at one another and fell instantly in love. I didn’t think this was love, but I certainly felt a warmth and fondness for Fox. Breaker may have rescued me from Balmoral, but Fox had saved me in every other way. I’d grown more in the two nights I’d known him, felt more at ease in the presence of a man than I had in what felt like forever, and I didn’t know why. I also didn’t really care about the why part of it all.
Fox was amazing, and he was mine. I didn’t need to know more than that.
“Make love to me, Josh.”
I felt him smile against my neck as he nibbled on me. “Thought that’s what I was doing. I must be out of practice if you can’t tell.”
My brow furrowed. I couldn’t claim experience, but shouldn’t there be fewer clothes separating us? I tugged at his shirt, wanting it off. The stubborn man refused to give me what I wanted. Instead, he worked his way down my body. When he sat up and reached for my panties, my breath caught. He eased them over my hips and down my legs. My heart fluttered like the wings of a hummingbird as he parted my thighs and settled between my splayed legs.
“Josh?”
“I’m going to make you feel good, sweetheart. Trust me?”
I nodded. Of course, I trusted him. I would have never let him get this far otherwise. My cheeks burned as he spread me open, and I felt his tongue lap against me. I squirmed, but he held me tight.
“Want me to stop?” he asked.
“No. Yes. Maybe? It feels… odd.”
He cocked his head and waited. I didn’t have more to say about it. Odd seemed to cover it, well as good as any other word. It hadn’t hurt. If anything, I’d go so far as to say it felt nice. I didn’t understand why he wanted his face there, though.
“But not bad?”
“No. It’s not bad.” Fox licked his lips and blew across my pussy. My breath caught at the sensation. I felt my clit harden. “That’s… that’s…”
He flicked his tongue across the swollen bud, and I gasped, my eyes going wide. He did it again, and I couldn’t stop the keening sound that slipped past my lips. Oh, God! I’d never known any part of sex could feel so good.
“Will you let me keep going?” he asked.
I nodded, not sure I could speak.
He licked, sucked, and teased me until I nearly sobbed. My body shook and strained. There was something just out of reach, a feeling I craved yet had never experienced. Frustration welled inside me, as I waited for release. I could feel it, so close and I couldn’t quite get there. I didn’t know what to ask for.
Fox sucked my clit into his mouth and gave it a hard pull. I drew in a breath and felt like I was flying and coming apart at the same time. The sensations nearly overwhelmed me as I cried out, throwing my head back as my thighs clenched hard around him. My body trembled and I held back a sob from the intensity of the orgasm.
“That’s it, beautiful. Come for me,” he murmured, licking me again.
“Josh! I… what…” My chest heaved as I tried to catch my breath. I stared down at him in amazement. All the movies I’d watched, or books I’d read, hadn’t prepared me for what he’d just done. Reading about an orgasm, or seeing one faked on TV, wasn’t nearly the same as feeling it.
He levered himself up and sat on his knees, wiping his hand across his beard. “Now, do you still think sex is painful or scary? Or do you see what you’ve experienced so far wasn’t sex? What those men did was all about control and inflicting pain.”
“Yes, Josh. I understand the difference.” I reached my hand out for him. “Will you take off your shirt? I don’t like being the only one naked.”
He stripped his shirt over his head, and I pushed up on my elbows to get a good look at him. Even though he had a lean build, his broad chest had definition, and I saw a hint of abs. He didn’t look like the underwear models in magazine ads, or the buff actors on TV. Despite the fact I could tell he kept himself in shape, he wasn’t a solid mass of muscle. He was… perfect. To me, anyway.
His hands went the waistband of his underwear and he paused. “You sure about this, Raven? We can stop. I’m okay waiting however long I need to. I told you the truth when I said I would be all right if we never had sex. I just want you, in whatever capacity you’ll allow.”
Tears pricked my eyes at how sweet he was. How could a man who looked so tough be so unfailingly kind? “I’m sure. I want this, Josh.”
He nodded and removed his boxers, tossing them aside. His cock stood erect. Hard and ready. I sat up and reached for him, wrapping my hand around his shaft and giving it a stroke. He groaned and gripped my wrist, stilling my motion.
“Sweetheart, we already know I don’t last long when you do that. If you want me inside you, better save that for another time.”
I lay back again. A case of nerves hit me, but I shoved down the doubts. This was Fox. My hero. The man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. He’d never hurt me and had proven that already. If I were ever going to give myself to someone, it would be him. I couldn’t think of anyone I would trust more. I just wish I felt worthy of him.
He settled over me, his cock nudging my pussy. He braced his weight on his arms and leaned down to kiss me. His lips moved against mine, slowly, as if he wanted to savor the moment. Fox rocked his hips, sliding his cock up and down my pussy until I felt him start to push inside me. My breath stalled a moment, and I gripped his shoulder, my nails biting into him.
“You all right?” he asked, drawing back far enough to look at me.
“Don’t stop.” I tightened my hold on him as Fox slid in deeper. When he’d completely filled me, he held still, giving my body time to adjust. I might not be a virgin, but I hadn’t been with anyone his size either. “So big.”
He chuckled and kissed my nose. “You’re good for my ego. Not big. Just average.”
I shook my head. No, he wasn’t average. He pulled his hips back, then drove forward. On the next stroke, he shifted so that he brushed against my clit.
“Remember our talk about how a cock can’t hurt you by itself?” he asked, driving into me again.
“You’re having this conversation now?”
He smiled. “It’s all in how you use it. And I aim to make you scream my name, in a good way, before I’m done. I may not be as big as you claim, but I know how to use what I’ve got.”
I clung to him as he took me hard and fast, his hips slapping against mine with every thrust. The bed rocked under us, and I felt that same incredible sensation from before building again. Sweat beaded on Fox’s brow and along his body. The intensity of his gaze held me spellbound.
“Come for me, Raven.” He growled, his strokes becoming erratic. “Come for me, baby. Please. I can’t hold out much longer.”
I wiggled my hips until he hit just the right spot and I came, calling out his name. I felt the heat of his release, and still he didn’t slow. Fox kept stroking in and out of me, wringing one more orgasm from me.
“How do you feel about toys?” he murmured, pulling out and tumbling to the bed next to me. He drew me into his arms and held me close.
“Toys?”
“Vibrators and such. I’m thinking we need a small one for your clit. Being inside you is like nothing I’ve ever felt before. You squeeze my dick just right and I can’t last long. I want you mindless with pleasure, so sated you can’t move for hours. I feel like I failed you.”
I curled against him, tracing patterns on his chest. “You didn’t. That was amazing, Josh.”
He kissed my forehead. “I’ll make it better next time.”
I sighed and closed my eyes. It seemed he was going to be stubborn about it. I didn’t need it to be better. As long as he was the one inside me, the one touching me, nothing else mattered. I liked feeling this close to him, like we’d shared something special.
As I felt his release coat my thighs, my heart nearly stopped. “We didn’t use protection.”
“Can’t get you any more pregnant than you already are,” he said.
“But… what if those guards gave me something?” I leaned up to look at him. Fear filled me at the thought of hurting Fox in any way. What if I’d contracted something that couldn’t be cured? “After the incident with the cowboys, I got tested and I didn’t have anything. They didn’t test me at Balmoral.”
He cupped my cheek. “Easy, beautiful. I should have told you sooner. The doctor’s office called. He had a rapid STD test run on the samples he took during your appointment. You’re clean, and for the record, so am I.”
I eased back down next to him, my heart still racing. I hadn’t even thought to worry about Fox giving me something. It never crossed my mind he’d put me in danger. Even if we hadn’t known each other long, he had too much integrity for something so underhanded as being careless with my health.
He stroked his hand up and down my back, and I closed my eyes, reveling in the moment. When Breaker came for me at Balmoral, I hadn’t known what to think. He’d beaten the guard, but even still, I hadn’t known for certain if I’d be better off by leaving. Then I’d met Fox. One look in his eyes and something inside me had settled. Calmed. I’d felt safe just sitting next to him, safer than I’d felt in such a long time.
“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about the call,” he said. “I actually missed it and listened to the voicemail while you were sleeping. I stepped out of the room to make a call to Spider. He’s calling Church in the morning. That’s the room you went to before at the clubhouse. Will you be all right here by yourself while I’m gone?”
I tensed and tried not to panic. “Why do I have to stay here?”
He kept rubbing my back. “Church is for patched members and officers only. They won’t let you sit in, and I’m not sure you’d be comfortable in the clubhouse by yourself.”
“Who else would be there?”
“Probably a Prospect or two. Maybe some of the girls who come to have some fun. The old ladies typically stay home. Would you want to go hang out with Luciana? Or meet the other women?” he asked.
It would make sense to meet everyone. This would be my home from now on, and the thought of having friends made me smile a little.
“I’d like to meet them,” I said.
“When the call goes out tomorrow for Church, I’ll let Spider know. I’m sure Luciana can set something up. They could all come over here, or I could ask Luciana to pick you up.”
“Are the women never allowed at the clubhouse?” I asked.
“More like they prefer to not be there unless it’s a family event.”
I snuggled closer. “I’d feel better staying close to you. Can you ask them to meet me there? I won’t interrupt your meeting or whatever you’ll be doing. Knowing you’re in the same building will keep my anxiety at a manageable level.”
He kissed the top of my head. “Then I’ll take you with me. We’ll figure it out. But, Raven, sooner or later, I’m going to have to leave you alone while I handle business. As much as I love spending time with you, I can’t be with you every second of every day. You understand, right?”
I nodded. Didn’t mean I had to like it, but he was right. When he needed to get back to work, I’d have to loosen my hold on him. I only hoped it didn’t happen until I’d settled in more and figured out exactly how I fit not only into his life, but with his club as well.
“Get some sleep, Raven. Morning will be here all too soon. I don’t know about you, but I’m exhausted.”
“Tired,” I murmured.
He kissed the top of my head again. “Sweet dreams, beautiful.”
I could only hope. The nightmares left me feeling shaken for hours after I woke. I shifted and the stickiness between my legs made me shudder. How long would it take before I wouldn’t associate it with bad things? I refused to let the guards beat me. They wouldn’t make me afraid the rest of my life. I wouldn’t let them.
I heard a soft snore from Fox and smiled. He’d fallen asleep so easily and I envied him a little. With a sigh, I closed my eyes and breathed in his scent. It didn’t take long before sleep pulled me under too.