Age Gap Romance by Penny Wylder
4
The next day, I’ve made up my mind. I spent most of the night tossing and turning, unable to sleep. All I kept picturing was Russ in the stairwell. Russ, bending me over that railing to fuck me. Russ, pinning me against the wall, his voice low and commanding.
God, I want him to fuck me again. And not just to get back at my dad, even if that is why I started to flirt with him in the first place. By now, that’s just a distant memory in my head. I want Russ, I want his hands all over me, I want him to show me how he made me have two orgasms in a row, I want him to teach me everything he knows about making my body feel incredible.
I want to make him lose his mind the way he made me lose control in that stairwell, crying out loud even though I knew it was the worst possible thing to do in that spot at that moment. I would give anything for the chance to see Russ lose control that way, too.
Hell, I want to taste his cock. To trace my tongue along the edges, to lick the hard thick vein and trail the flat of my tongue along the tip…
But we can’t do that again. We can’t do anything, ever again.
Russ might not have seemed worried yesterday, about the possibility of my dad firing him, but maybe Russ just doesn’t know how overprotective and controlling my dad really is. They’ve been friends for years, but friends are different than daughters. I can’t imagine Russ has really thought through the consequences: how he could lose his job, his position, his seniority, everything. I know how much working at this hospital means to Russ. Because after all, like he told me yesterday, he’s turned down dozens of other job offers over the years, to go and work for competing hospitals. Russ never has, because he loves it here. And he loves my dad, too.
Much as I want to piss off my dad right now—and believe me, that’s a lot—I can’t do it at the risk of Russ’s life and happiness. I don’t want to get him fired.
And I have no idea what Dad would do to me, either. I’m not too worried about him firing me, because hell, I never wanted to work at this crappy job in the first place, tied tight on his leash. But I wouldn’t put it past my father to try and get me blacklisted at other jobs in the area. I wouldn’t put it past him to call Doctors without Borders to tell them that I’m a bad nurse and he fired me for sucking at my job. If he thought it would keep me stuck here in the city, under his thumb, he’d do that in a heartbeat.
So, no. I want to anger him, but I don’t want to go totally nuclear. Which means, no more Russ.
Even if it was the hottest sex I’ve ever had in my life. Even if my whole body goes tense and trembly with anticipation just from pulling up to the hospital doors the next day.
Dad, who has been driving me to work this morning, the same as every other morning, glances over at me and notices my tense body, my clenched fists. “I know you’re still angry,” he says, softly. “But someday you’ll understand why I do this. You’ll come to realize that sometimes you have to play the game, if you want to get ahead. Now.” He nods toward my side of the car. “You have your patients for the day.”
All three of them, the same three I was downgraded to babysitting yesterday. But I play along, because better Dad think this is what’s preoccupying me than guess what I’m really thinking about. “I still think it’s unfair,” I say as I unbuckle my seatbelt and shove out of the car door. “Both to the other patients and to the other nurses you’ve given way too big a workload to handle.”
Not to mention, it makes the other nurses on my team resent me. I heard whispers yesterday in the changing room as I was heading out at the end of my shift. Lionel telling another nurse that my father was giving me preferential treatment; assigning me as few patients as possible, so I wouldn’t have to work very hard.
If only he knew the truth. If only I could explain that I’d trade places with any of them in a heartbeat.
“And as I’ve explained before, it’s not your call,” Dad replies evenly, but I’m already slamming the car door in his face and storming toward the hospital entrance. I don’t wait for his valet to come and claim the car keys from him, or for his assistant to come read through the daily drama he needs to deal with.
I just beeline straight through the winding corridors toward my assigned locker, where I’ll be able to drop my stuff off, pick up some coffee, and get to work.
But at the entrance to my wing, I stop dead, my limbs ceasing to propel me forward. Because leaning against the wall of the locker area, completely out of place up here in the pediatric wing of the hospital, is Russ, dressed in his green surgeon’s scrubs. He has two coffees in hand, and he’s grinning like I’m the person he wanted to see most of all in the world right now.
My cheeks flush as I reach his side, and he holds out a coffee, his eyes grazing over my body boldly. “You look great today,” he says, soft enough that hopefully none of the other nurses at the nearby station, about fifteen feet away, can overhear him.
“To what do I owe this surprise?” I ask, still blushing. I take a hesitant sip of the coffee before I relax. Cream, no sugar. Just the way I always drink it. Russ has picked up coffee orders en route to my parents’ place before, but I’m surprised he noticed which of our three orders was mine. Or that he remembered it. I can’t remember the last time we were all together like that. It must have been months ago. Did he really remember so many tiny details about me?
As if reading my mind, he winks. “It was a selfish move, actually. I wanted to brighten up my own day a little bit. I knew seeing you would be the quickest way to do that.”
I duck my head to hide the smile that tugs at the corners of my lips. “Russ…”
“About yesterday.” He dips a little closer, lowers his voice even more, although his baritone deep voice is already pitched pretty low. “I can’t stop thinking about you.”
“Neither can I,” I breathe, and I force myself to look up, then, and meet his gaze. Those dark brown eyes of his bore into me, from this distance, so filled with heat and desire that I can hardly make myself look away. But I do. I have to. “But, Russ… we can’t do this.”
He arches an eyebrow, studying me. “I already told you, I’m not worried about getting let go. I have plenty of other fish on the line, employment-wise. I’d be fine.”
“But you’d lose your status. Surely another hospital wouldn’t employ you at the… well, the level you’re at now.”
“Or with as much influence as I have, since the director is my best friend, you mean?” Russ catches my eye with a smirk. “Maggie. I’ve thought this through. Long before yesterday, actually.”
My cheeks heat up all over again at the suggestion. At what that implies. But I don’t rise to the bait. I can’t. “It doesn’t matter. I can’t do this, to you or to me. My father is… he’s so much more controlling than you understand.”
“Believe me, I know how controlling your father is, and what he’s capable of.” Russ shakes his head slowly. “Maggie, if you don’t want to do this, I understand—”
“It’s not that,” I reply, so vehemently that it takes us both aback. I shake my head. “I… I want you. I’ve wanted you for years. But we can’t, okay?” With that, I shove off the wall, determined to walk away before I do something more that I’ll come to regret. “Just… leave it.” Without waiting for him to reply, I push through the locker room door, into the women’s area, where he can’t follow me. I crouch there against one of the benches, my warm coffee in hand, and take deep breaths, until the stinging at the backs of my eyes finally goes away.
This is for the best. I have to push him away, before this goes any farther. Before we both get hurt.
* * *
By lunchtime, I’ve almost stopped obsessing over the deep, morose expression in Russ’s honey brown eyes when he looked at me, as I told him we had to end things. At least, so I tell myself. But it’s hard to stay preoccupied, or busy, when I barely have enough patients to take care of to distract myself. Unfortunately, all the down time my father ensured I have in my schedule just leaves me way more time to fantasize about his friend.
Just before lunch, I give in and lock myself into one of the bathroom stalls. I shut my eyes and lean back against the wall. Shut in here, I can almost imagine that I’m back in the stairwell again with Russ. I can feel the heat of his warm body pressed against mine. The way his thick, strong leg parted my thighs as he pinned me back against the wall. The way his hands roamed across my body, traced my curves. I do the same with my own hands now, following his tracks, and it feels all right, but nowhere near as good as when he did it. His hands were so much rougher, stronger, more calloused and manly than mine.
Finally, I give up and just slide a hand under the waistband of my scrubs, tracing my panties, dipping beneath them. Once again, it’s inadequate. My fingers are narrow and soft and slim. Nothing like Russ’s thick fingers. But I do my best, tracing the lips of my pussy, my eyes squeezed shut tight, trying to imagine him. The scent of his sweat and musk, the smell of sex that lingered between us in the stairwell the last time he fucked me. I try to imagine my finger is his, the way he pressed a fingertip inside my pussy and traced its edges, slowly moving in and out.
I curl my own finger inside me, and I picture the heat in his gaze as he told me he was going to fuck me, hard. I imagine the deep baritone of his voice. “I need to fuck you right now, Maggie.” I picture him saying that as I add a second finger, then a third, needing three of my own fingers to imitate two of his.
Finally, I start to build toward a climax, my whole body trembling with anticipation. I peak with a faint whimper, but it’s a lot easier to keep quiet when I’m by myself, rather than Russ, who somehow seems to know my own body better than I do.
When I’m finished, my whole body flushed, and yet feeling nowhere near satiated, I stumble out of the stall and wash my hands in the sink. Then I grab my clipboard and head out toward the cafeteria. Maybe some food will distract me, keep me from all these wayward thoughts.
Instead, I run smack into Russ again, striding up the hallway from the direction of the surgery wing.
“Maggie.” He tilts his head, offers an arm. “Headed toward the cafeteria?”
“I was, yes.” I ignore the offered arm, though I have to suppress a faint smile to do it.
“Wonderful. I’ll escort you.” He falls into step beside me.
“I thought I made things clear earlier today,” I murmur under my breath as we walk, mostly so nobody else in the crowded hallway will hear me. Nurses I do recognize, and doctors who I know report personally to my father, pass us. We plaster on smiles, and everyone waves or nods our way. They all know that Russ is my father’s closest friend, and I’m his daughter. We’ve known one another all our lives. It shouldn’t be strange for them to see us together. Nobody would suspect anything.
But I feel like I’m walking down the hallway with a giant neon billboard over my head. They just fucked each other, with an arrow pointed right at us. Surely every single person near us can sense the tension in the air between us, smell the hormones we’re giving off, or guess what it means that we keep trading sly glances, checking one another out even though I know we shouldn’t.
“Perfectly clear.” Russ tucks his hands into his pockets, looking entirely unconcerned as he matches my pace, strolling easily down the corridor. “Which is why I’ve decided I’ll need to step up my game to change your mind.”
My cheeks flush. “Why?”
“Because.” He lowers his voice even further, a barely-there purr that nevertheless doesn’t fail to make my toes curl up inside my standard issue nursing shoes. “I can’t stop thinking about you, Maggie. I want you. I want to fuck you again… and again and again.” His grin widens, no doubt as he notices the effect he’s having on me.
My heartbeat speeds up, in spite of myself, reacting to his words even though I’d give anything not to show any hints of unease right now. “There are about a million reasons why we shouldn’t,” I breathe, then snap my mouth shut as Lionel passes, offering a stink eye for me. I glare right back until he passes down the hall.
Russ is temporarily distracted from his seduction. “What was that all about?” he asks, glancing over his shoulder at Lionel’s retreating, slumped shoulders.
“Dad gave him and the other nurses on my rotation all extra work because he wanted to punish me. Now they all think I’m being given special treatment because I’m the director’s daughter, a lighter workload than anyone else. Meanwhile, the opposite is true…” I groan with frustration.
Russ’s hand comes to rest on my shoulder, and he draws me to a stop. For a second, I pause, and all I can focus on is the heat of his hand on my body. Even through the fabric of my scrub shirt, I can feel how warm his hand is. I step toward him, unable to resist, and there’s that familiar scent again, the one that makes me want to stop protesting, find the nearest empty room to drag him into and let him fuck me until I forget about everything else. About Lionel and the other nurse’s anger, about my father. About everything except the way Russ makes me feel when he touches me.
“They shouldn’t blame you,” Russ murmurs. “That’s not right. They know what your father is like. Or at least, they should have noticed by now, if they’ve been working here this long.”
“Yeah, well.” I cross my arms, frowning. “Not everyone notices who they’re working for, I guess. Or if they do, they don’t care, because he still signs their paychecks, no matter how he treats his employees. It’s easier to blame me than someone with real power.”
Russ frowns too, and his hand slips down my arm. “I could talk to him for you. See if it would make a difference.”
I jerk back from his touch as though stung. “No,” I blurt, my breath coming short. I shake my head to clear it. “I mean, thank you, but… you can’t.” Whereas yesterday, I started flirting with Russ specifically so Dad would find out and get angry about it… now I don’t want Dad anywhere near this. “I told you, I can’t risk your job here.”
“And I told you, Maggie, you’re worth the risk.” He takes another step closer. He’s close enough now that the heat from his body radiates through mine. It’s hard to breathe. Hard to remember what I need to do, or why. It’s so damn hard to walk away.
“Well, I disagree.” With an enormous effort, I force my foot to move backward, and draw myself away from him.
He follows me, a small smile on his lips, just for me. “Are you saying you don’t want me to touch you ever again?” His hand hovers next to my cheek. An inch to the side and he’d be touching my skin. I could let him draw me back in. I could cave now, let him have me again. Let him fuck me like yesterday, let him touch me until I lose control again, until I have another orgasm like the one that made me cry out in that empty stairwell.
My whole body feels like one giant blush. I clear my throat, hard, to make it stop. “We can’t.”
“Yes, we can.”
I push past him, beelining up the hallway. But his voice follows me, long after I’ve disappeared around the far end of the corridor. “I’ll find a way to convince you, Maggie Owens. Mark my words.”
Oh, I do. And I can’t stop thinking about them, all day long.
