Mistakes I’ve Made by Jordan Marie

13Callie

Things have calmed down. It’s almost become routine. I’m counting down the days until school is out and I can go away to college. It will just be a community college because I will have to pay my own way with the help of some grants. Still, there is on-campus housing and that excites the hell out of me.

Reed and I have fallen into a pattern. We’re still best friends. We still spend a lot of time together, but Reed has started dating and that hurt like hell. I tried but the two I went out on were less than stellar. I would have rather stayed home—and with the life I have at home, that’s saying something.

Prom is fast approaching, and everyone is all excited about it. Even Katie is happy because she and Jake have gotten back together. I don’t know if it’s going to work out. Jake still doesn’t seem happy and talks about leaving Macon all the time. Katie turns deaf whenever he says anything, though.

I don’t really care if I go to the prom, but I don’t want to be the only person in the entire senior class not to go. I don’t want to make a date and pretend to have a good time, however. I guess I could go stag, but that doesn’t sound fun either. I’ve been kicking around the idea of asking Reed. I know he wants friendship, and I also know that’s my fault. I still like him, however—probably more than ever. Which means, I need to either tell him how I feel, or regret it forever. Maybe it will never work out. Maybe he will never feel the same. I’ve thought about both of those things happening, but the truth is that if I don’t tell him, I’ll always regret it.

With that in mind, I’ve decided to ask him to the prom. I’ll just tell him how I feel but tell him I can deal if he doesn’t feel the same. We can still be friends—no harm, no foul. That’s easy, right?

Except, it doesn’t feel easy. My stomach is churning.

“Hey, Callie.”

I look up to see Mitch standing in front of me. I wince as I look at him. It’s not because I dread him. Actually, he’s been kind of nice to me and Katie since the day Jeff punched him. He even went so far as to apologize to Katie. He explained he had a fight with his father and took out his anger on her and he was sorry. I’m not sure Katie totally forgave him, but Katie’s got an awesome father. I know what it’s like when your father is an asshole. So, I feel sorry for him. We’ve become pretty good friends the last few months. All that aside, however, the reason I’m wincing is because Mitch’s face looks even worse now than it did when Jeff laid into him. I hiss between my teeth and reach up to touch the nasty gash along the side of his face.

“What happened to you?” I ask him, using my fingers to trace along the gash to the already swelling area under his eye.

“Just a love note from dear old Dad. He was pissed this morning,” he says and there’s a bleakness in his eyes that I understand. I’ve started avoiding my own dad because of the shit he says to me. Last night, he said I couldn’t have supper because I was getting too fat. So, after I fixed him and Mom food, I was sent to my room.

“Damn, I’m sorry, Mitch. What got him upset this time?”

“He was pissed because Reed stayed out all night and wasn’t there to take Dad to work this morning. I got the fallout.”

“Reed stayed out all night?” I ask, my stomach feeling as if the bottom is falling out. “That doesn’t sound like him.”

“It has since he’s been hooking up with Chasity. He stays out at least twice a week.”

“Chasity? Chasity Newberg? They’re dating?” I squeak, my heart skipping multiple beats in my chest. Chasity Newberg has the nickname mayonnaise by all the guys because her legs are always spread and ready.

“Chasity doesn’t date, Callie. But yeah, she’s been hooking up with Reed for a couple of months now.”

“Months? I don’t believe it. Reed hasn’t breathed a word of it. Besides, I thought you and Chasity were seeing each other.”

“We were,” he says, combing his hand through his hair. “I was staying with Marshall one night, but my stomach was doing some strange shit, so I wanted to come home. I tried to call Reed to come and get me, because our old man fucked my car up. He wouldn’t answer his phone. So, I had to walk home feeling like shit.”

“Where was Reed?” I ask, not sure I want an answer.

“I get upstairs to our room and he’s there, fucking my girl.”

“I…I need to talk to Reed,” I respond, sick to my stomach.

I push against Mitch and take off half running through the hall, not caring that everyone around is looking at me. Mitch has to be lying. He has to be. There’s no way Reed would be fooling around with Chasity and not tell me. He wouldn’t touch her, not when she was dating his brother. The Reed I know just wouldn’t do that. I have to talk to him. He’ll explain everything. I skid to a stop, my shoes sliding on the floor and making a squeaking noise that sounds really loud to my ears. I lean against the fire door that closes off the stairs I just jogged up. They’re wedged open, but right now I wish they would close and hide what I see in front of me.

Across the hall, I see Chasity talking to Reed. They’re standing really close together. She’s leaning on him, making sure her big boobs are pressed against him. I can’t hear what they’re saying, but from the smile on Reed’s face, I have a feeling I don’t want to.

“Callie, slow down,” I hear Mitch mutter behind me.

A minute later, I feel his hand on my shoulder. I don’t acknowledge him. I can’t. I’m too busy trying to find a way to breathe over this giant knot of misery inside of me. How could I have missed this.

I watch Chasity walk away from Reed and inside I’m screaming no. It’s too late. I’ve wasted too much time getting up my nerve and now… It’s too late.

I start to move. I don’t have a plan, but I just want to talk to him now that Chasity is leaving him alone. Before I can tell my feet to move, however, she turns around to look at him. I can hear what she says now, even from where I’m mostly hiding by the door. I really wish I couldn’t hear, though.

“Oh, and Reed, come by tonight and I’ll give you a preview of the fun we we’ll have together at prom,” Chasity says, killing what hope I had inside of me.

Mitch was telling the truth…

Chasity walks by me a minute later, a smug smile on her face. “Oh, hey, Callie,” she singsongs, making me physically ill. I have to swallow down the bile that rises up inside of me. “Mitch,” she adds, his name snide and hateful.

“Mayonnaise,” he says with a nasty smirk that I see when I look up between them.

“Bastard.”

“Whore, fucking my brother in my bed.”

“If I knew your little brother was that much bigger than you, I would have tried him out much sooner, lover,” she purrs before continuing down the stairs.

“I’m going to be sick,” I whisper to no one, just feeling the need to say the words.

“Shit, Callie. I’m sorry. I thought you and Reed were just friends, or I would have warned you,” Mitch says.

Bitterness wells up inside of me. “We are. I told him that’s all I wanted,” I answer, feeling numb, knowing I’m right. I’m the one to blame for the way things are. Now, it’s too late to do anything about it.

Much too late.