Hitman Daddy by Aster Rae

18

Christian

What.An. Amazing. Day.

Relaxation wraps around me as I relax in the hotel room later that night.

The wedding was more incredible than I ever could've imagined.

The dinner with Michael and his bride was delicious.

The food was amazing.

We had the most amazing cocktails and danced the entire night.

Now it's the moment of truth.

The moment Igor and Timofey interrupted during my conversation.

It's time to show Nikolai my true self.

Will Nikolai kick me to the curb and tell me I'm a freak?

Or will he accept me for who I am?

An anxious breath escapes me as I follow Nikolai into the gorgeous five-star hotel where we had the after-party and settle onto the bed.

Nikolai removes his tie and shoots me the most dazzling pair of bedroom eyes I've ever seen.

"Thank you for inviting me again." I rub my palms on my dress pants.

"It's my pleasure."

"I've never done anything like this in my life."

The most extravagant thing I've ever done is eat Rowan's ice cream monstrosity at the parlor with an expensive gluten-free doughnut.

Never did I think I'd hobnob with a bunch of wealthy Russians.

After setting his tie on the bed, Nikolai walks to me and wraps his hands around my waist.

His palms are firm and thick. He pulls me flush with him.

"This is your life now, Christian."

"My life?"

"You're not going back to that crummy apartment in the Bronx. You're my partner now. You deserve the finest things. You deserve to share this life with me. I'll put you up in my penthouse and get you a car, a driver, and a credit card you can use whenever you want. "

I sit down on the bed.

My head falls until my chin touches my chest and I tremble with anxiety.

It's time.

Nikolai was gracious enough to let me have a private moment with him to confess my secret.

But I can't put it off any longer.

Nikolai deserves to know I'm a little.

"I have something to tell you,” I mumble.

"You can tell me anything."

"It's a big secret. You might think I'm weird."

Nikolai unbuttons the top of his dress shirt. He slides onto the bed next to me and takes my hand.

"Do you give me permission to hold your hand while you tell me? It will make you feel more comfortable."

I look at my little palm wrapped in his mammoth fingers.

It makes me feel so fucking tiny but also safe, protected, and warm.

"Do you promise not to laugh?" I whisper.

"I won't laugh at you, Christian. I don't care what your secret is. I want you to share it with me."

A sharp breath escapes me. Now or never.

"I'm a little."

Anxiety thrums.

My cheeks burn. I can barely look at Nikolai.

Nikolai tightens his grip on my palm. "A what?"

“It's my kink. I'm into… Little things."

Nikolai's jaw drops.

Oh God. He totally thinks I'm a freak.

He opens his mouth to say something but I cut him off.

"I'll explain it so I can get it over with. I have a regression kink. I like to regress to an earlier age because it makes me feel safe and warm. I've never had a partner to share that with so occasionally I'll dress up in little boy pajamas and cuddle with my stuffies in bed. I've even played with Rowan once. We didn't have sex but it made me feel safe and small. Feeling small is a major part of my kink. I sometimes fantasize about regressing during sex but then I get too warm and fuzzy. When I regress, I want to feel protected. Like I'm nestled snug in a cocoon of love."

"Why didn't you tell me before?"

"I tried. I gave you a teddy bear. I made a joke about drinking milk from a bottle. I feel so little and warm when I'm with you, Nikolai. I know our relationship has been a sham but I've never felt so babyish in my life. I tried to tell you a million different times but you didn't understand me."

My throat constricts. "It's okay if you want to kick me out now. I understand. You're a fucking catch. You don't have to settle for someone like me."

Nikolai doesn't pause, doesn't hesitate. He sits me on his lap.

He pulls me tight and plants a kiss on my cheek.

"You have no idea how proud I am that you told me that, Christian. It takes courage. Bravery. You just did an astonishingly brave thing."

Nikolai is only humoring me.

He'd never want to be with someone like me.

"I'm not brave," I whisper. I scratch my index finger with my thumbnail. "I'm a pansy. I've fantasized about you since you came into my ice cream shop but I didn't have the balls to tell you what was really going on. If I was brave, I would've been honest right away."

"What if I told you I have secrets of my own?" Nikolai's breath is hot. "Jonah wasn't just my boyfriend. He was also my baby boy."

My jaw drops. "What?"

"Jonah had a regression kink too. He didn't go all the way like you but he enjoyed the protection aspect of being a little. You explained it much more eloquently than he did. When he confessed that he was into this kink, I couldn't help but fall head over heels for him. I never knew I was a Daddy but Jonah helped me understand that about myself."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I had to push it under the rug when I ascended into my family's empire. How hypocritical would it be to hurt people for a living while pretending to be a loving Daddy at home?"

My heart beats erratically. I can't believe that Nikolai has experience with Daddy kink and didn't tell me.

Betrayal, much?

Yet at the same time, I waited until tonight to tell Nikolai I was a little.

Nikolai was under no obligation to tell me he was a Daddy to Jonah.

Also, I totally understand that being Mafia requires an ice-cold heart and being a Daddy requires a heart of gold.

Joy dares to fester in my soul.

Maybe Nikolai waited until tonight because his heart wasn't warm and fuzzy enough to confess his true self to me.

Maybe he's been a cold ruthless bastard all these years but I'm changing him into a moral man.

Am I melting his icy heart?

If so, Nikolai can be my Daddy.

Well… Except for one thing.

If Nikolai hurts good guys, I don't want him anywhere near me. I can't trust a criminal.

But if he only hurts bad guys – save for the occasional casualty which is unavoidable in his line of work — I know I can put my faith in him.

"You only hurt bad guys, right?" I whisper.

"Yes. I avoid casualties whenever possible. But the men I chase down are evil to the core."

Nikolai brings his lips to mine. “You're the most perfect boy I've ever met. I want to be your Daddy. I want to protect you from every danger big or small. I know I'm a ruthless man but I can change, Christian. You've already helped me become a better man. I want to continue on this journey with you."

Tears well in my eyes. "You mean it?"

"Yes. I want to be your ruthless protector. If anyone looks at you the wrong way, I want to gash the living shit out of them until they bleed.”

"But will you be a cuddly Daddy too?" I rub my teary eyes on his dress shirt. "Will you play blocks with me and teach me dino things? Will you tuck me into bed at night and kiss my toes to keep me cozy and warm?"

Nikolai runs the callused pad of his thumb across my trembling lower lip. "Fuck yes. I'll be the best, loving Daddy you've ever dreamed of in your life. I'll play with you every night.”

My cock is sticking straight up in my pants.

"You're getting me hard,” I whisper. My cheeks blaze as I press my nose against his dress shirt.

Nikolai presses his palm to my pants. "Will you give me permission to touch you tonight?"

"Yes." I nod shyly. "I give my consent."

Nikolai unbuttons my suit pants and slips his fingers inside.

He pulls down my pants and exposes my undies.

I'm wearing dino undies that are a little too tight.

I'm immediately embarrassed because I forgot I was wearing them.

"Please don't judge me." I place my palms over my eyes.

Nikolai runs his fingers over my undies. “Don't be shy."

Nikolai removes me from his lap and lays me down on the bed.

He takes off all my clothes and plants kisses on my tummy.

My heart trembles with warmth as he rubs my cock through my undies.

It feels good.

I've fantasized about Nikolai touching me more times than I can count, but now that it's happening, the emotions overwhelm me.

I can barely think as Nikolai stimulates me, his firm hand massaging my hardness and cupping my balls.

He kisses his way to my underwear and gently nibbles my shaft.

The sensation kills me. "Nikolai."

Nikolai breathes hotly on my underwear, then licks a straight line up my shaft. “You’re so fucking stunning.”

Warmth floods me. I could understand if Nikolai thought I was cute. Like a dog or something.

But stunning?

It's almost like this man is actually attracted to me. Like he actually wants to fuck me. Like he actually wants to suck my cock.

Can I get luckier than that?

I spread my legs to let Nikolai slip my underwear off.

I cry out as Nikolai presses his firm fingers into my ass.

His fingers are so slow and seasoned, and I know Nikolai is struggling to hold back from doing more to me.

Nikolai's a greedy man.

A man who gets what he wants.

But Nikolai's restraining himself.

He stops and stares at me like I'm the most precious gift he's ever seen.

"Nikolai." I cover my eyes as he tugs my underwear to my thighs.

My cock springs forth and brushes against my tummy. A bead of pre-come pools at the tip as scary thoughts race through my head.

What will he think of me? Will I be enough?

Nikolai wraps his fingers around my quivering shaft. "This night is about your pleasure, Christian. Your orgasms. I don't know if you’ve experienced a blow job before but I'm going to bring you to the heights of pleasure tonight. If you're uncomfortable at any time, tell me to stop."

I've never been with a guy before. It's so embarrassing.

I've never even had another man see me naked in my life.

"Will you tell me if you're uncomfortable?"

I nod. "Yes."

"I'm going to blow your fucking mind.”