Waiting on the Rain by Claudia Connor

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Ava moved through the cabin, using only her hands to feel for obstacles.

“Siri, call Luke!” She stood still, listening for her iPhone to follow the command. For a ring or vibration that would help her find it. Nothing. She moved around the room as fast as she could. She didn’t have her cane, didn’t know where it was. Couldn’t see.

If she could just see. The phone could be right in front of her. She felt around, swiping her hands that were sticky with blood over furniture. Over the kitchen counter. She screamed for Siri again, relying on a machine to save the life of the man she loved.

She couldn’t find it. She couldn’t find it! Frustrated, terrified tears ran down her face.

I can’t find it.

She’d go for Luke’s, she thought. She’d find Luke’s phone. Outside.

She didn’t know how much time had passed but it felt like hours. She made her way back, moving as fast as she dared. “Luke?” She crawled on her hands and knees toward the spot she thought she’d left him. Her hand pressed down on something jagged and sharp and she cried out, but kept moving.

“Luke!” She sobbed when she felt him. She thought he was closer to the porch now but he wasn’t moving. She pulled at his arm, her voice breaking. “Luke!”

She felt for the wound. Warm and wet. His blood had soaked through his shorts, his shirt. She put her hand over it and panic roiled in her gut as she felt warm Luke’s blood well between her fingers. The belt wasn’t working. She touched his face, his chest. “Luke? Please. Say something!”

“I’m here,” he said, but his voice sounded funny. Tired. “My phone’s on the porch. Get it.”

“Okay.” She was already standing. “Okay.”

She stumbled, tripped, went down hard. She made it up the steps then moved her hands in a wide, sweeping motion. She knew it was a chaotic search, knew that she could be within inches, centimeters of what she was looking for and miss it.

It was here. It was on the porch somewhere. She started at one end, feeling along the edges, making sure she went all the way across side to side. She scooted back, repeated the blind sweep side to side.

“Luke?” She called out to him when she was thought she was nearing the end. “Luke? Luke! I’m looking! It’s not here! It’s not here!” But he wasn’t answering her. “I’ll get help. Okay? I’ll get help.” Where was she going to get help?

The truck? She scrambled down the porch steps, missed the last step and fell, but she was pointed in the right direction. She was almost sure. Hadn’t they gotten out of the truck and walked straight to the porch? To the left, then straight?

She half ran, half crawled until she felt the front fender. She got in, thanked God Luke had left the key in the ignition, and turned over the engine. She knew how to put it in drive, knew which side was the gas. She pressed her foot on the gas and the truck lurched. She cried out and hit the brake. She couldn’t do it. She couldn’t get help.

She had to. She let up on the brake, let the truck roll slowly over the ground and laid on the horn. Someone would hear. Someone would see. They had to because she didn’t know what else to do.

She slammed her hand down on the steering wheel again and again, stopping in between to listen for any sign someone had heard. She wanted to go back to Luke. She was just about to abandon the horn blowing to look for the phone again when she thought she heard yelling.

She froze. It was distant, faint, but there was definitely something. She pressed the horn again, three quick blasts, hoping and praying whoever was close enough to hear would get the message.

When she heard a car horn call back to her, she heaved a sobbing breath and crawled out of the truck cab and back to Luke.

She heard a car coming up fast, heard doors open and shouts. “Over here! He’s over here!” Her knees gave way and she sank to the ground.

Everything happened in super slow motion after that.

She heard Hannah and Stephen, heard Hannah saying her brother’s name over and over, more frantic every second that she didn’t get an answer.

“What happened? Ava, what happened?”

She heard Stephen call 911 then heard him say, “No time.”

“It was… I don’t know. He… He said it was the nail gun.”

“Get him in the car. Hang on, buddy.”

Then Luke’s silent body was being lifted away.

She felt the movement around her. Heard shouting to get his legs. She stood, reached out to help but only found air. She heard the grunts of effort and the sound of breathing. And Hannah continuing to say her brother’s name over and over.

She never heard Luke’s voice. She stood there, frozen. She couldn’t run to him, couldn’t help carry him.

“Ava!” A hand grabbed her arm, pulled her. She felt the side of a car. Felt for the door handle, felt another hand swipe hers away.

“Get in.” Then the door was opened and she climbed in. There was no time. No time. Then Hannah was gone and Stephen was yelling instructions. The back door closed.

The engine revved and Hannah laid on the gas. Ava had to brace herself against the dash.

“Luke? Luke? Open your eyes, damn it.”

It was Stephen, Ava knew his voice.

“Come one man!” When she heard flesh on flesh, a hand slapping a face, she pressed both hands over her mouth. To stop herself from vomiting or screaming. She didn’t know what was happening. Were Luke’s eyes open? Had the bleeding slowed? She wanted to ask but couldn’t make her lips move.

She wanted to cover her ears so wouldn’t hear people calling out to Luke and him not answering.

What seemed like a lifetime later she was standing in a cold hospital hallway. Luke had been taken into surgery. That’s all she knew. That’s all she’d been told.

Luke’s blood that had coated her hands had dried. She could feel it cracking. She could smell it. She tried to hide them, crossing her arms across herself. She didn’t want to wash it off. Not yet.

There was other family there now. Mia and Nick. Zach was there too. Nora was coming from a different hospital as soon as she could. Ava heard their voices, trying to be quiet but the sound carried.

“Why didn’t she call for help?”

“She couldn’t find the phone, I think. I don’t know.”

“He goes off to God knows where and does God knows what and comes back here and this happens?” Hannah’s voice was nearly shrill and someone shushed her.

Ava swallowed back a sob and bit her lip. There’d be no stopping the tears once they started.

“Hey, Ava.”

Mia. The woman’s arm came around her shoulders. It didn’t help the twisting in her gut. An alarm went off over the speakers and a voice echoed code blue. The soles of feet slapped on the floor as people moves quickly past her.

“Don’t worry. He’ll be fine.”

If he was, it’d be no thanks to her.

* * *

Ava heardthe door to Luke’s hospital room open from where she sat in a plastic chair next to his bed. Mia had been right. He’d made it through the surgery.

“What the hell, bro?” Zach asked, coming into the room. “You done with your near death experience?”

“Pfft. Near death my ass,” he said. “Pass me some water, will you?”

Ava heard Zach slide the plastic pitcher, heard the water pouring over ice. Luke hadn’t asked her to get him more water.

“Do I need to take away your power tools?”

“Nah,” Luke said, his voice softer than usual. “Just me being an idiot, not paying attention.”

“What do you think, Ava? Is he too old to climb a ladder?”

“I wasn’t climbing, I was coming down.”

Ava’s stomach clenched as the realization hit her. Luke had been coming down the ladder, hadn’t been paying attention. Because of her. Because she’d come outside while he was working and he’d yelled at her to stop. To keep her from getting hurt. So that’s what had happened. She’d been about to run into something and Luke had yelled at her to stop. He’d stopped paying attention to what he was doing and… And he’d almost died.

He could have died. She distantly heard Luke offering her fries over the roaring in her ears. She’d stupidly thought that she would end up needing him too much, that he’d expend all his energy watching out for her and assisting her until he grew tired of it. She hadn’t considered that he’d be hurt because of her. Had never thought there would be a time he would need her and she wouldn’t be able to help him.

Was he already thinking about how to get out of this? How to take back what he’d said? If he wasn’t thinking it now, he would. And she wouldn’t go through that again. She wouldn’t put either of them through that.

She slid her hand from the edge of his bed and stood.

“Hey. You okay?” Luke caught her hand and she trembled at the feel of his big hand around hers.

“Yeah.” She slid her hand from his. “I… I um…”

“Hey.” Zach touched her shoulder. “You sure you’re okay? You look kinda pale. Want me to grab you something to eat?”

“No. Thank you. I’m fine.” Were the two brothers exchanging a look? When she walked out of the room would Luke ask his brother for advice on how to get out of this? She shivered with a sudden chill. “I just need to go the bathroom.” She had her cane and her other hand out, feeling her way.

“Use this one,” Zach said. “I can step out.”

“No, really. I’ll be back. It’s fine.” She managed a smile and prayed it was believable.

She made it out the door, her insides trembling. Because her blindness and Luke trying to protect her had nearly gotten him killed.