Virgin Marriage by Alexa Riley

Chapter 4

Jason

“What are you thinking?” I step closer to her as I see a sadness cross her eyes. “What was that thought right then?”

“It’s nothing.” She looks away from me and I don’t like it.

“Tell me, Skyler. I can’t make it better if you don’t tell me what just made you so sad.” I see what looks like tears forming in her eyes and I curse as I go to her and kneel down beside the bed.

“It’s nothing, it’s fine.” She tries to turn away from me to look out the window, but I don’t let her.

“You’re mad at me,” I say, and it’s a statement, but she nods like I asked her a question and still won’t look at me. “You think I disappeared because I don’t want you.”

“Well, if you wanted me you’ve got a terrible way of showing it,” she snaps.

“I stayed away to protect you but I never stopped wanting you.”

“To protect me?” Her eyes narrow in confusion. “That doesn’t make any sense.”

I swallow hard and contemplate for a moment how to put into words what I feel. My fears and my passion all circle around her and every moment of my life is hinged on her movements. How do I describe what that’s like and how do I control myself when she inevitably pushes me away? Stepping back and watching her from a distance was the one way I could manage it. But seeing her today with Jon has sparked something I never thought possible. She could start a life with someone else and though it sounds idiotic I never thought that was possible.

In my mind and soul there was no one else for me, and I know she felt that, too. I didn’t really have a plan other than keeping my distance before today. Now I see that I’ve gone about this the wrong way and I’ve got to somehow make it right. And to start, I need her to understand what it is I feel for her.

“I’m obsessed with you,” I whisper as I lower my chin and look down at my hands. “I don’t know how to explain it other than I can’t control myself with you.”

“Then why did you leave?” Some of the anger in her voice is gone but I can sense she’s still hesitant.

“I don’t think you understand. It’s uncontrollable.” I look up at her as I take her hands in mine. “I want you more than I want to breathe and the longer we stayed together the worse it became. I had to take a step back, but I never stopped watching you, and I damn well never stopped wanting you.”

She’s silent as I think about the torture of watching her from a distance.

“I’ll smother you and make demands and never let you more than an inch away from me. I’ll force my way into every part of your life and bury myself so deep inside you that you’ll have no choice but to carry me with you wherever you go.”

“Jason.” Her voice is softer now and I hate how much I love the way she says my name.

“Can you imagine a life like that, Skyler? One where I’m always two steps behind you or watching you sleep. Would you want to live with me at your heels like a dog always ready to love you?” I close my eyes and shake my head. “I will never stop and it will only get worse with time. I know in my soul that whatever you give me won’t be enough and I’ll spend every moment of every day wanting you.”

“I don’t know what to say.” I feel her fingers tighten around mine, but I can’t let hope take root.

“I lost my business and everything that I’d built. I’m getting it back, but the thought of not being able to give you everything you wanted tore me into pieces. You deserve a man that can shower you with wealth, but I wasn’t even good enough to let you go.”

“You fell off the face of the earth. How did you not let me go?”

I look up at her with a sardonic smile. “I was always watching. I looked away from you for one second today and you fell into the arms of my brother. What am I supposed to believe will happen if I turn my back on you completely? It’s not something I can do, but the thought sends me straight into a living nightmare.”

“It wasn’t like that. But I need you to tell me what you mean by you were always watching me.” There’s only curiosity in her voice which gives me a little relief.

“When we met in my office that first night and I gave you my shirt I knew instantly that I couldn’t let you go. I went a little overboard and when you gave me your phone to put in my number, I shared the location with myself. From then on I could see where you were and I made sure to be close. You don’t go to a lot of places, so it kind of made it easy for me to be nearby. But that’s how I lost you today. I was used to you going out for your quick breakfast and then going back home and I didn’t factor in your love of pie. I should have had a stack delivered two weeks ago when you got your period.”

Her face flushes as her eyes widen. “How did you—”

I hold up my hand to stop her. “There’s nothing I don’t know about you.”

“Jason, this is crazy. You tell me you’re so into me that you had to walk away? That you knew instantly that I belong to you, and you’ve been watching me this whole time? Yet I feel like at any moment you’re going to disappear on me again. How am I supposed to react to this?”

“You don’t have to react,” I say, and she sighs. I let go of her hand and place my palm on her thigh and slowly move it lower. “The only thing you have to do right now is feel.”

“W-what?” She stumbles over her words as I push her knees apart.

“I told you that I was going to make sure you eat. And the only thing I want to do right now is take care of you.”

I lean in close and brush my lips gently against hers. “I can’t expect you to understand how I’ve behaved or how strong my need for you is. But I can’t keep putting space between us.”

She gasps as I kiss her and I use the moment to slide my tongue into her mouth. The feel of hers against mine is warm and soft and a shiver runs down my back. If I had it bad for her before, there’s no name for what I’m feeling as she lies back on the bed and opens for me.

Having her body under me settles something inside my soul and I know it’s because finally I’m able to protect her. If I’m here and on top of her, then no harm can ever come to her. I don’t know how I’m going to survive if I can’t do this to her every moment of every day.

When she’s breathless I press my forehead to hers and just breathe her in. “Just feel,” I remind her as I slide down her body and in between her legs.

I reach over and grab the top box on the stack of pies and open it beside her. There’s a plastic fork tucked in with it and I take it out and hand it to her.

I look down at the pie and realize what flavor it is. “Perfect.” I lick my lips as she watches me move my fingers to the edge of her leggings and then pull them down.

She’s not wearing any panties with them and her naked pussy is in front of me, with a small strip of curls that leads right to her soft lips. It might as well be an arrow of invitation as my mouth waters.

“For every bite you take, so will I,” I say, looking up at her.

“Oh god,” she says softly and wraps her fingers around the fork.

“Looks like we’ll both be getting cherry today.”

I wait until she scoops up a bite of the sweet dessert and takes a bite before I lean in close and run my tongue between her folds. We both moan at the same time, but I don’t know if she’s enjoying the taste or the feeling more.

The sweet flavor of her pussy hits my tongue and there’s nothing in the world that I’ve tasted that compares to how perfect she is.

“Eat,” I demand because I need more. I lock eyes with her and she hurries to take another bite as I fall onto her pussy.

“Jason,” she moans as I suck on her lips and then her clit.

“Keep eating, I can’t stop.”

She raises her hips when I slide two fingers into her because I need more. I have to know every inch of her and I can’t wait any longer.

Her fingers move down to where my mouth is and she spreads her lips. The sweet taste of cherry pie is smeared on her clit and I lick it up greedily. The two of us have been edging closer to this line since the day we met and now that we’re here, I don’t know how we can go back. We won’t be able to. It’s as instant as gasoline and fire when we touch and I know that just eating her pussy won’t be enough.

Her legs spread wider and my fingers move faster. Her tight pussy squeezes them and I groan as I lick her pussy clean. She’s so fucking tight and dripping wet that her sweet kitty is begging for my cock.

“I want your pussy all over my face before I fuck you,” I say, running my nose and mouth between her lips.

She cries out as her legs tense and her back arches. Her wet sheath grips me hard and she cries out her pleasure. I look up at her and watch as her cheeks and chest flush. The orgasm takes over her whole body and she grips onto me, grinding her pussy against my mouth. I’ve never seen anything more beautiful in my entire life, and for as long as I live this will be burned into my memory. It’s the first time she gave herself to me and now there’s no going back.

I reach down and unbutton my jeans as I pull my aching cock free. I jack it a few times to try and prepare myself for the tight entrance ahead, but it’s no use. Nothing can prepare me for what I know will be the tightest ride of my life.

I fall on top of her and kiss her like I’ve been at sea for the last ten years. The taste of buttery crust and sweet cherries mixes with her pussy and I growl. I’m hungry for all of her and I can’t wait any longer.

I push my cock against her opening and feel the soft wet kiss of her pussy against my tip. But just as I’m about to plunge balls deep into paradise, there’s a knock at the door.