Kite In The Snow by Karla Lopez
My vision goes in and out as I try to open my eyes and focus them. I try a few more times and blink while trying to focus on the figure next to me. My mind feels hazy, the last thing I remember is my baby boy crying and Wyatt whispering in my ear. He gave me sweet, loving words.
It’s a weird feeling I have inside my chest when I think about Wyatt and what he does for me. I know what that feeling is, but I don’t know if I want to act on it.
After everything I went through, Wyatt does seem like a safe haven to me.
I look around the room and see the lights dim, but the next thing I see takes my breath away.
Wyatt is sitting in the chair next to my bed while he feeds my baby. The tiny human that came from me is soft asleep against Wyatt’s chest as if he already knows this is his safe haven too.
I blink to try and tame the tears, but it’s a beautiful sight. Knowing that me and my baby are going to be okay and safe. I can breathe a little easier.
“Hi,” I whisper and softly smile.
Wyatt’s eyes are intense with emotion when they see me. He looks like he wants to cry with relief and scream with glee. I chuckle at the thought.
“Mae, you’re awake.” A tear runs down his cheek, and it makes me want to wipe it off his face.
Wyatt gets up and walks over to me. “Do you want to hold him?” I nod and watch him place my son in my arms. He’s small, but he looks healthy. I’m overcome with so much emotion that I can’t help but cry.
Wyatt leans over and kisses my head as he sits next me, holding me and my son. I’m in awe of the way this beautiful man makes me feel.
We watch my baby sleep for a while before Wyatt speaks up, “You really scared me, Mae. I don’t know what I would have done without you.”
I look up at him from where he’s sitting next to me. I see all the emotions swimming inside his eyes. “I’m here. I’m okay.”
He shakes his head and unshed tears cloud his eyes. I lean my forehead against his and he holds my face.
“I need you to know Mae, that what you heard wasn’t everything. It wasn’t because you were pregnant, it was because I love you. And I thought you’d figure it out if we were so close to each other and runaway.”
Knowing I almost died on that operating table turns things around for me. Instead of hiding my pain and suffering in silence, I should let Wyatt in.
The doctors said there was damage to my uterus and that’s why my baby came early and why I couldn’t stop bleeding. He said that it could have been a number of things that caused it, but all I can think about was the last night with Travis.
That night is a night I will never forget and I’m sure he was the cause of it, but so much fear comes with reliving that night.
I watch Wyatt’s kind eyes and breathe easier. “I’m just scared. I don’t want to be your burden. I come with a lot of baggage. A past that is hard to overcome and a baby that isn’t yours.”
“Baby, you will never be a burden because I love you. You let me in little by little, and it has been a gift to be able to do that. And even if Bean isn’t my son, it’s not always about blood. I’ll care for you and him as if he were my own. I already see him as mine.”
He wipes his thumbs across my cheeks, taking the tears with him as he holds my face. This man is everything I prayed for, and I didn’t even know it.
Without another thought, I lean in and press my lips to his. His soft lips are gentle at first, then they become greedy. I swipe my tongue across his and he moans in pleasure. A weird feeling settles in my lower belly as I press myself harder into the kiss.
I lose myself in the kiss. For the first time, I’m very happy to be lost.